Tis the season....
Granted, this is the...5th time I've tried writing this.
I keep trying to find a way to summerize my 2009, and it's not easy. this has been the year with easily some of my highest highs, and certainly some of my darkest and lowest lows.
And yet here I stand. In a whole new place. Getting my photography business back up into a decent swing, about to aquire a whole new rig and parts, possibly some lighting...
Looking at life a whole new way. started off in a whole new place this year. Found happiness, and then in a blink of an eye, lost it all again....health spiraled out of control, nearly had brain surgery, could've died, lost the woman I loved and the only person I've ever really considered marrying..
And Here I stand. had a job that I was about to walk away from, that was making me miserable. Now I'm happy as can be there, as well as have a second job that allows me to have an espace, and THEN also have the whole photography business that is trulely where I hope to be able to support myself in more of a full time way, away from the confines of the mouse, or the globe, or any other corporate entity. My skills and talents are improving i do belive, and other people seemingly agree.
so here I stand. Bring it on. it's time to live, and to enjoy. Things can vanish at the blink of an eye, and you can also build your future the way you want it. I know it's all cliche, but holy hell, I lived it this time around. i wouldn't really wish a majority of what I experianced this year on my worst enemies, and the pain that I've suffered since, and all the meds I get to take as a consiquence...but damn if I'm not going to take it and make the most out of what I have left. Hell, for all i know, 2010 will finish the job that 09 started.
Until then, Here I Stand.
Granted, this is the...5th time I've tried writing this.
I keep trying to find a way to summerize my 2009, and it's not easy. this has been the year with easily some of my highest highs, and certainly some of my darkest and lowest lows.
And yet here I stand. In a whole new place. Getting my photography business back up into a decent swing, about to aquire a whole new rig and parts, possibly some lighting...
Looking at life a whole new way. started off in a whole new place this year. Found happiness, and then in a blink of an eye, lost it all again....health spiraled out of control, nearly had brain surgery, could've died, lost the woman I loved and the only person I've ever really considered marrying..
And Here I stand. had a job that I was about to walk away from, that was making me miserable. Now I'm happy as can be there, as well as have a second job that allows me to have an espace, and THEN also have the whole photography business that is trulely where I hope to be able to support myself in more of a full time way, away from the confines of the mouse, or the globe, or any other corporate entity. My skills and talents are improving i do belive, and other people seemingly agree.
so here I stand. Bring it on. it's time to live, and to enjoy. Things can vanish at the blink of an eye, and you can also build your future the way you want it. I know it's all cliche, but holy hell, I lived it this time around. i wouldn't really wish a majority of what I experianced this year on my worst enemies, and the pain that I've suffered since, and all the meds I get to take as a consiquence...but damn if I'm not going to take it and make the most out of what I have left. Hell, for all i know, 2010 will finish the job that 09 started.
Until then, Here I Stand.