So, my grandma is still able to hear what we are saying, but can bearly respond or speak. She is very very close.....hours. She looks like shit and just randomly makes movements with her body. She seems like she is in pain. I have been there all day long. I am sick right now too, so that isnt helping anything. At least my employer gave...
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So, its really fucked up. My grandmother has been ill for a few years now with breast cancer, but now it has just spread all over her whole body and is making every part of her body fail. Her immune system is shot, and she really only has maybe a few months to live at the longest. Hospice thinks she only has a few weeks....
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distra:
sorry to hear that...... 
What did you do, delete me and have to re-request????
Hope that things get better for you.
What did you do, delete me and have to re-request????
Hope that things get better for you.
desolate_bigot:
I totally know how you feel. My Aunt (really my mom's aunt, but we were close because her and my mother were very close) passed away because of alzheimers this past year, and my grandma on my dads side has severe dimensia, and can't even speak any more. Its sad that people have to die.
On the bright side, at least you can still talk to her. My grandma and Aunt were both way too out of it by the time we realized something was wrong. I never got to tell any part of them that could understand how much I appreciated them.
Treasure the last moments, and be grateful you have them. When she does pass, be content: You will see her again some day.
Heavy Metal is the Law
On the bright side, at least you can still talk to her. My grandma and Aunt were both way too out of it by the time we realized something was wrong. I never got to tell any part of them that could understand how much I appreciated them.
Treasure the last moments, and be grateful you have them. When she does pass, be content: You will see her again some day.
Heavy Metal is the Law
So, yeah. The move went okay I suppose. Just really stressful at times, very tiring. Our house is still randomly placed and everything is everywhere. I just can't wait to go furniture shopping and actually make the house look cool, unlike the last one.
Yesterday was weird. BillieJean and I were in class and all of a sudden I felt really dizzy and light headed....
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Yesterday was weird. BillieJean and I were in class and all of a sudden I felt really dizzy and light headed....
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abyssbecomesme:
heheh, i like that you still call me that 
and yeah, you should eat in the morning. i really make an attempt to eat something small every morning because i start feeling shitty reaaallly quickly when i need food. just go out and buy a box of nutri-grain cereal bars or something.. they're delicious and small and perfect for breakfast.
i feel like a hideous old woman after saying all of that for some reason.
"SLOW DOWN YOU'RE GONNA KILL US ALL!!!!"
and yeah, you should eat in the morning. i really make an attempt to eat something small every morning because i start feeling shitty reaaallly quickly when i need food. just go out and buy a box of nutri-grain cereal bars or something.. they're delicious and small and perfect for breakfast.
i feel like a hideous old woman after saying all of that for some reason.
"SLOW DOWN YOU'RE GONNA KILL US ALL!!!!"
Okay, I have the internet now, so I'll be on alot more again. 
baby_square:
hooray!
heckahella:
So? How did the move go?
So I don't have the internet right now because I was in the middle of houses. I am going to be getting it hooked up at my new place tomarrow, so I will be sane again.
So, if anyone was wondering and/or cares, thats why I havent been on lately.
BTW, today sucks. and so does life.......TOODLES
So, if anyone was wondering and/or cares, thats why I havent been on lately.
BTW, today sucks. and so does life.......TOODLES
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wickerman:
Called Layered Cake...comes out friday in the U.K.
daggers:
hurry.. i miss chatting with you
It was weird today. I smoked 2 hash oil cigarettes today at work on break. I usuallu can smoke like 20 bowls in a row and this hash oil isn't that strong enough to make me woozy. But after I smoked the 2nd one, I got nautous and actually threw up a little bit......what the hell?
Eh, at least I was able to leave early,...
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baby_square:
no bueno
deerailed:
I just want to say I'm sorry. I've been a self-centered douche about this whole thing, and I'd understand if there's residual scorn...
All I know now is that I miss my friends... and that friendship matters more than some crappy emotional misconception.
Hit me back sometime, if you want...
All I know now is that I miss my friends... and that friendship matters more than some crappy emotional misconception.
Hit me back sometime, if you want...
So I finally found a place to live. Its alot nicer than my current home, but way cheaper.....damn right.
Just have to be moved out by the 1st. Bleh, i hate moving. I feel like it was a few months ago when I moved here. At least most of my shit is still boxed up in the garage. My rat-packing became useful....wheeeee!
only 27 days...
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Just have to be moved out by the 1st. Bleh, i hate moving. I feel like it was a few months ago when I moved here. At least most of my shit is still boxed up in the garage. My rat-packing became useful....wheeeee!
only 27 days...
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heckahella:
Looks pretty cool, my ps2 has been collecting dust lately 
sstairs:
i just got a note on my door saying that mt apartment complex would not be renewing my lease. i wonder what i did?
So I guess I am over my bitterness and rage regarding certain events. I am feeling a bit better now, but I am still stressed out. I must be moved into my new place by the 1st of october and I haven't started packing yet. bleh.....
I can't wait for San Andreas.....only 28 days left till I pick up my copy.
I can't wait for San Andreas.....only 28 days left till I pick up my copy.
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sicka:
Dude I totally wear my winter clothes all year round...hence the ghastly paleness. Heh.
sstairs:
i'm pretty sure the only english cd kent has is isola, which is probably their best. you could probably get some english songs from hagnasta hill on the internet, or maybe i could get you a copy somehow. other than that they are all in sweedish.
Go fuck yourself you selfesh, arrogant, dramatic fucker.
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daggers:
I used to be extremely into trance and drum n bass... But after all my "drug" days weared off I have chilled a bit.. I rarely hit up clubs that play that type of music... More in to punk shows and indie shows.... 
daggers:
Ok I have decided on Sage....
Its sunday.
It isn't the same.
Forever Sundays will never be the same.
To who should care.
It isn't the same.
Forever Sundays will never be the same.
To who should care.
sstairs:
i don't think they tour in america anymore. i saw them after isola came out, they just about played the whole album. there were about 20 people there, and they rocked out like nothing i've seen before or since. do ypu have an english copy of hagnasta hill? i'm not sure if it was actually released or not, but i got an avanced copy.
daggers:
I use to see this DJ named Sage at Eklectik... You? You are a cutie! Just curious but how did you come across me?
Fuck this day.
Damn drama.
Stupid homework asignmens: busywork.
i miss my best friend.
Damn drama.
Stupid homework asignmens: busywork.
i miss my best friend.
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sstairs:
have you ever seen kent live? they are the best.
Strange weekend. I got sick on friday. I feel better now, and it did give me the excuse to not go to work this weekend which is pretty sweet.
Last night AbyssBecomesMe and some friends randomly did some nitrous. lol, although the cracker I bought was a piece of shit and the threading on it got stripped instantly. Meh. So my boyfriend stole a bakery...
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Last night AbyssBecomesMe and some friends randomly did some nitrous. lol, although the cracker I bought was a piece of shit and the threading on it got stripped instantly. Meh. So my boyfriend stole a bakery...
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deerailed:
HA HA! (exstacy)
I think I came out of that whole experience feeling none too depressed (on top of my already current bad moods), but with a SERIOUS oral fixation.
I can't stop chewing something, smoking something, etc.
it gets better for each day that passes... whateva.
Still thinking 'bout your design. I want this to be my best work to date, so I am giving it very careful consideration.
I think I came out of that whole experience feeling none too depressed (on top of my already current bad moods), but with a SERIOUS oral fixation.
I can't stop chewing something, smoking something, etc.
it gets better for each day that passes... whateva.
Still thinking 'bout your design. I want this to be my best work to date, so I am giving it very careful consideration.
baby_square:
haha, hooray for weekends off and the occaisional whippit!
that's really sad. i went through this a few years ago with my grandmother. now, my grandfather is going the other way, and giving out mentally, slowly and piece by piece, which is really hard to watch, not least of all because he sort of. . . brought me up. somehow it's gotten easier to deal with than it was when the decline first started though- i'm kind of the family tower of strength, so i've spent the last few weeks keeping everyone together, and now of course i'm worn out- but accepting that what will be will be. the main thing, i guess, is memories. those are what you hold onto. even after the person is long gone.
take care of yourself.