cheeseeye

the looming goodbye and other tales of woe or contradiction...

how long have waited for those gentle eyes to look upon my face again and taste my tears with reverence and heated moments glanced between our laughter. how long have i started from my dreams or your shadow, and held a little vigil, to see the sky break and hope for more tomorrows. how long has dusk been my enemy, longing been my adviser, truth a captive circumstance of my secrets. how long have i waited. and now that time has kept me. now that fate has left me. now that dreams are nightmares, so cruel in their intentions. now that this heart has broken, assured in my destruction...i go to dwell for a while in the living, until fortune tells a tale of love and heartache again...unless it was just a mistake and the post is yet to come.
unless it was just a healing time, glad in it's advances, assured with it's wrenching antagonistic and sometimes sneering wiles. unless you didn't leave after all, and this was just the middle. the end yet to come.
for tears shed, for time spent listless, for energy wasted on mending, or was it a waste?
all the words there are don't make it clear. the looming lingering goodbye sits heavy on my shoulders, still and watchful.
soo many sighs for such a small person.