I need something new. something different than what i'm used too. I used too be involved with a girl on this site, but we're water and oil, and i'm ok with that.
but i've been doing the same shit for too long, sitting around this cockroach infested shithole of an apartment...drinking beer, taking bongloads of shithole weed......it's sad when your friday night consists of the ladder, and hopes that your married friends can get online to shoot stuff with you for abit.
I like movies, I think it would be fun to make one of my own.....
I could care less if it ever gets me shit. but just to be able to look back and say "hey, I did this" ....to be able to show it to my neice some 16 to 18 years from now would be neat.
What does one do at this point? looking back theres a 1000 things I wish I could do over. but where to go from here?
i'm a musician, but at some point I lost the love for it......It just started to feel like a second job...I flaked out on a good group of guys because staying up till 4 in the morning in the studio seemed like more work than I cared to do on a school day. no school really , just a shithole job I have to try and get by..
I'm lost
I'm starting to think that diving into work is my best bet.. "Do work son" was imprinted on the used sidekick I bought.and i was like "work sucks!". But life sucks, so you might as well work and work and work. make some money to do stuff, I've got free places to crash in portland, vegas, L.A., tucson, and other spots I cant even think of, It would be nice to just travel to such places and do as I please... But I need the funds to do so..
having a girl around would be cool too, I miss having someone to share things with. I guess thats my problem, I've been banking on having someone there to help me out for the better of the last 8 or 9 years. now I'm all alone watching the world turn. I watch it turn, and try not to hate it......try is all I can do.....which is fucked up for me.... because its always been " try, there is no try!!! just DO or DO not"
i'm lost
but i've been doing the same shit for too long, sitting around this cockroach infested shithole of an apartment...drinking beer, taking bongloads of shithole weed......it's sad when your friday night consists of the ladder, and hopes that your married friends can get online to shoot stuff with you for abit.
I like movies, I think it would be fun to make one of my own.....
I could care less if it ever gets me shit. but just to be able to look back and say "hey, I did this" ....to be able to show it to my neice some 16 to 18 years from now would be neat.
What does one do at this point? looking back theres a 1000 things I wish I could do over. but where to go from here?
i'm a musician, but at some point I lost the love for it......It just started to feel like a second job...I flaked out on a good group of guys because staying up till 4 in the morning in the studio seemed like more work than I cared to do on a school day. no school really , just a shithole job I have to try and get by..
I'm lost
I'm starting to think that diving into work is my best bet.. "Do work son" was imprinted on the used sidekick I bought.and i was like "work sucks!". But life sucks, so you might as well work and work and work. make some money to do stuff, I've got free places to crash in portland, vegas, L.A., tucson, and other spots I cant even think of, It would be nice to just travel to such places and do as I please... But I need the funds to do so..
having a girl around would be cool too, I miss having someone to share things with. I guess thats my problem, I've been banking on having someone there to help me out for the better of the last 8 or 9 years. now I'm all alone watching the world turn. I watch it turn, and try not to hate it......try is all I can do.....which is fucked up for me.... because its always been " try, there is no try!!! just DO or DO not"
i'm lost
texas:
fun is my new middle name. talked to v. i miss her. i need to visit the kc. i miss my peeps.