chckpotpie

Don't you hate it when you are laying in bed and you know you have to get up in a few hours, but can't fall asleep? You just keep thinking, "if I fall asleep now, i'l get 3 hrs of sleep...2hrs...1hr." And your mind is just going so fast that it won't let you take a break and fall asleep. This hasn't happend to me in a while, except for last night.
I know exactly why too. It's because I got an email from my ex right before I went to bed. It wasn't bad, it was just sort of saying hi and what is new. But it just reminded me how much I still feel for her. She's moving up to San Fran in a month, and it kills me that I may never see her again. I couldn't shake this feeling.

What does one do in this situation? Do I pretend like nothing is wrong, say goodbye and make the same attempt to move on with my life that i've been trying to make since we broke up in Janurary? OR...Do I tell her that I still feel for her and am afraid of the idea of never seeing her again?

With the latter, I realize, she isn't going to fall into my arms and say "I love you too and I'm not going to leave now because I want to be with you." -contrary to my wishes, my life is not a love movie. This is why I am so reluctant, because I can't predict the outcome. I don't like it when I don't have control over what happens.

Anyway...I'm off to school. I definitely appriciate your opinions on the situation that is causing me to lose sleep! *sigh*