i am so nesting right now. i love winter time for that. my new tv doubles as a monitor and i got a netflix account so have the instant watch 24 hrs movies and shows i barely leave my room. my new big bed is sooooo comfy that i don't have leave hehe. its kind of nice. fuck the clubs and all that right now.
but it is kind of lonely. i am longing companionship right now. i have been single so long now. i promised myself 90 days of celibacy 5 months ago to break my old habits of letting myself being taken cared by someone and here it is 5 months 2 months over my goal. i feel like i have forgot to flirt or something. its weird. it's good though in some ways. i have made some amazing friends, i am getting to know people on a deeper level , i am knowing myself deeper that ever. but still weird. i am been a relationship junkie so long so for me to take this time is different.
i guess almost dieing will do that to you. all my priority have changed. but but it sure would to meet someone maybe go out on a real date and be spontaneous, creative with someone .....
but it is kind of lonely. i am longing companionship right now. i have been single so long now. i promised myself 90 days of celibacy 5 months ago to break my old habits of letting myself being taken cared by someone and here it is 5 months 2 months over my goal. i feel like i have forgot to flirt or something. its weird. it's good though in some ways. i have made some amazing friends, i am getting to know people on a deeper level , i am knowing myself deeper that ever. but still weird. i am been a relationship junkie so long so for me to take this time is different.
i guess almost dieing will do that to you. all my priority have changed. but but it sure would to meet someone maybe go out on a real date and be spontaneous, creative with someone .....