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My boyfriend left about four hours ago. I am going back home for a couple of days on Friday, but I still was overwhelmed that he is gone again. It didn't really hit me until I walked back into my room alone and it smelled like him. I just broke down. I couldn't stop crying even though I am going to see him again really soon; it was so dumb!. His visit went really well. For the first time since I have been here I was able to sleep really well. Sleep has completely evaded me lately. I feel like I am always awake, even when I ABSOLUTELY need to be alseep. I am just so uncomfortable here.

When my boyfriend was here we got really drunk the first night he was here and had just the most incredible sex. Apparently I was really loud... I mean I am always loud... but loud enough that someone had balls enough to knock on the door while we were doing it. HA HA! But, it was a soft knock (I wasn't even sure someone knocked at first until I heard another AND asked "Did someone just knock?" somehow through my moans) and they ran away... Not that we stopped, but they run away when they want me to turn down the stereo, so I am assuming they ran away. Anyway, my bf made me cum like 5 or 6 times during that one sex session. I thought I was going to explode by the time he came. Whoa...! He said he wants to move out here, but I doubt he actually will. He said he will make up his mind in the next couple days. He is worried about getting a job mostly, but there are jobs aplenty out here. I had a job two days after I moved here. I need to know now, so I can tell the housing (they need to know before November 15th) at the school and get an apartment by December. He said he would move in the beginning on January if he did. I am sure I could find him a job, help at least. I guess we will just have to see. Also, though, I might not even be able to stay because my school loan never was disbursed and the bank is making me reapply. I am not in as great of a financial situation anymore, so I worried. Plus, they never gave the money to the school the first time, why would they now??? I was surprised to find that out and now my tuition is almost two months late. They are going to suspend my account if I don't pay within a week. That will never ever happen. As much as I feel lonely here I don't want to give school up. I sacrificed everything to move here. I just hope my bf will move here. And hopefully, my school thing will work out! It needs to. Something NEEDS to work out. Everything can't always go bad all the time, right? I hope not..........