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I just cancelled my account. I completely forgot that the time was up... and I can't afford this right now. frown I am on myspace if you want to keep in touch: http://www.myspace.com/16536618

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jehu_:
In response to your question, my brother was over visiting, but he dozed off really early. So I was alone for the most part.
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So...

I have no way to stay in DC. That means I will be heading back to Portland permanently on the 23rd. I have mixed feelings about it.

At least I have one friend back there that wants me home. She will let me stay with her for awhile if I need it... I probably will.

I was going to stay with my (ex?)boyfriend, but...
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trebo:
Hey Charlize kiss ...Do you know that I really love you! kiss ....You went for your dream...Dont have any regrets!...You will get discovered another way...I'm sure of it!...Keep your passion and dream alive!...You will find your way....
Turning emotions off???...Things would be soo much easier for us huh?...lol..Dont give upo on being happy!...You will find what you are looking for....You deserve to be happy!...Dont go back to Portland with your head hung down...Hold your head high!...Love Trebo kiss
hypnogogic:
You've never been to a New Years party?!?!?!?!?
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So, I am feeling tons better, but none of my problems are solved. I'm not sure why I feel better. I either let go of expectation that things will be good, or I am in denial...

I can't sleep hardly at all. I haven't fallen asleep before daylight since Tuesday, which happens to be the day that guy flipped out at me. It has to...
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kentclark:
Hope you're sleeping better soon. Don't sell that adrenaline short, though; your body may be looking out for you.

Hot chocolate is a cure for many ills. A gallon or two'll have you in good shape in no time......

kristie:
Hey! You're a DC girl, too. Just stopping by to say hello. smile
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kentclark:
Glad things are looking up. What happened?
superflea:
Thank you dahling.

I declare you my present. Now come over here that I may unwrap you.

You heard me. Git.
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Heartbroken.
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phaedrus33:
hey, hey, hey now, c'mon now, you're better than that; you're better than him and you have your whole awesome future to work with. Being heartbroken is a fact of life, it happens to all of us if we love others, but still, 'tis better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all, right?

D.C. can be poison for a mere mortal; I know, I've been there, and much as I loved DuPont Circle on 9/11/01, I'm glad I'm not there now. Time to get yourself home, my friend, and roost among your loved ones. Give yourself some credit for what you've lived through; and prepare yourself for a whole new next stage of life; it's going to be great!

If it's not, blame me; it won't be your fault.

Love,

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phaedrus33:
Charlize, thanks for writing, and I'm really glad the bf will be there for you. Sounds to me like you've got enough good reasons to go now, rather than wait til the 23rd, but you know the downsides better than anyone else. My only suggestion is that you make your decision after you get some sleep. And for what it's worth, I'm glad I wasn't at the restaurant when the asshole showed up; we don't need a new criminal arrest record now, do we, and chances are the creep needs a major attitude adjustment. . . . I'd be likely to use up all the good kharma I've squirreled away, and then some, just trying to enlighten the guy.

When you go, I suspect you'll have priorties other than SG to keep you occupied, so if we don't hear from you, know you're going with our best wishes, hugs and kisses. But drop us a line now and then, if you can; we'll all want to know how things turn out.

Love,


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Sometimes I think it would be safer for my sanity and my body if I just stay a mute pretty girl that is obedient. Then maybe men wouldn't be such assholes. Who am I kidding... I could never be like that EVER!

During the first month I was away from my boyfriend he burned me some CD's with songs that we used to listen to...
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kentclark:
It sounds like you know what you need to do; I know you'll have the courage to do it.

Remember that the point is to be happy, and you can't be happy when you don't feel creative and loved. Goals are important, but they should grow and change along with us, not constrain us.

Of course you don't think it's cold--you're from Portland! Those of us from warmer climes have some adjusting to do....

gersguy:
Guess all of us guys have a bit of a crazy side to us, but it sounds like he isn't right.
I know the mix tapes and cd's that are made during a relationship is sucky to listen too after. Believe me. I used to make a mix tape and cue it to "our" song. Then slip it into her car stereo. romantic? i thought so.

Good luck and going home isn't always a bad idea, but just make sure you do it for the right reasons. A bad relationship isn't always the right reason.
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I need some drinks... yes, that will solve all my problems, right? Right! tongue surreal whatever biggrin shocked eeek wink kiss
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kentclark:
Liquor is the answer. But what is the question?
trebo:
I would go to the ppolice Charlize...Like yesterday!...Put a restaining order on him!...You dont need to feel like that especially after all the previous shit you went through! (you know the shit I'm talking about)...He has taken away your safety zone...Take it back!... kiss
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I didn't want to come back to DC at all, but I came. Now I am here.

Despite all of the shit, I love my boyfriend so much. I can't stop. When I was visiting I could tell he really does love me too. The distance kills us, though. He can be such an ass, but he can also be so respectful and caring. He...
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tiffanymarie:
you came home for a visit? why wasn't i aware of this? i hope you get your answer. good luck making the decision.
tiffanymarie:
probably going to have to cancel my account for awhile.
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I'm going home to visit tomorrow. Yay! I am really excited about it! biggrin I have been so miserable and lonely here, and right when I finally made up my mind to move back home, I have started to really enjoy it. I still haven't gotten my school shit figured out, but even without school I have grown very attached to someone here. I feel like...
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trebo:
Charlize...Words cannot express how proud I am of you!...Hold your head high and keep aiming for the stars! kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss
kentclark:
DC can be a tough town at first; once I settled in, though, I made some friends I wouldn't trade for anything.

The most important thing is to be where you are loved. And it sounds like you've got that no matter which you choose, so you can't go wrong. Hope you enjoy your trip home, and best of luck.
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This world is so fucked. Sometimes I think it is hell, but there seems to be some people that are happy, right? There is this incredible girl that I work with. She is absolutely beautiful inside and out. She has had some of the worst experiences I have ever heard of one person going through. I can't even believe she can still function. It is...
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lyfeforce:
Isn't it great to have people like that in your life?

I've found personally that there is always a balance in the whatever there is that binds reality together. Pain seems to be counter-balanced by hope... from there, I have no clue.
badfingers:

She sounds like an amazing person and quite an inspiration.
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hypnogogic:
You're not innocent?!?!?

What?

That's it. I'm done. You just ruined my image of you. No more pure as the driven snow for you.




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trebo:
You doing ok?? kiss
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So after I broke up with my boyfriend a week or so ago he talked me into staying with him again, afterall. He was being nice again. But, I have been really sick for a while and he has been very uncaring about it. It really bothered me. I thought I jsut had the flu or something, but it hasn't been going away so I...
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lilje:
directly translated it would be called winterkiss. More here

edited cause i had more to say wink

really . dump him again. he doesn't seem to care about you at all. okay, he didn't call you to hear if you were okay. some boys can find that hard to do. but to say it is all in your head, to not believe you, to not support you.... it's like he only wants you to stay around for good times, never worse.

i guess people are dropping from different kind of reasons. there's some rumours etc out there that i dont really feel like recalling. i believe olivia had written something smart about it all.

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nathanial1812:
DUMP THE CHUMP!