charliebones

So I'm on a cranberry juice detox right now to flush any miscellaneous substances out of my system as well as just to get some of the other shit that's been floating around in there out. I'm emotionaly exhausted. This weekend was great if not a little over stimulating. I went to a photo shoot with Bob Marcotte and ended up an accidental model! I learned a lot and I think I walked away with a couple new friends. I met sara and erin and ended up at their white trash party where I got completely fucked up; something I haven't done in a really long time. I think ive been a little scared to. Ive had a lot of pent up emotions and feelings that have been right there at the edge of everything. I think ive been scared that if I got really wasted I might just let it all out. Youd have to know me really well to be able to point out the exact point that it all let loose at the party; but it happened. I feel better. Honestly. I looked at matts pictures today and felt.nothing. that's good right? I think so.

I don't have a job right now and my social life is pretty boring. I feel like I wish I had a million people to surround myself with but we all know I'm a loner. Funnysomehow I think things are looking up.