charlatan

Enough...hair dye boxes, breakfast, wrapping paper...enough.

and i am nothing of a builder
but here i dreamt i was an architect
and i built this balustrade
to keep you home, to keep you safe
from the outside world
but the angles and the corners
even though my work is unparalelled
they never seemed to meet
this structure fell about our feet
and we were free to go

Things have become more hostile than I'm willing to wade through at the moment. I quit the only group I joined the site to be a part of. Things aren't they way they used to be.

It sucks when people see, and take advantage of, an opportunity to take shots at someone with no repercussions.

Maybe I'll quit the site altogether.

Fuck it.

It's so hard to know what the right choice is when it comes to your heart. You'd think I'd be better at this by now but apparently the manual on how my heart works is still packed in a box somewhere. I think trying is the noble thing to do and it's what my heart wants desperately, but my brain is kind of against it;...
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Everything is falling apart.

Fuck...

We laid Erika to rest today. It was much more difficult emotionally than I thought it would be. I thought I got all of that stuff out of my system but when we spread her ashes all the pain of loss came rolling back over me and I wept for my friend again.

You are in a better place, and you'll always have a space...
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Looking at this space for the last few days and nothing I can up with seems to cover the gravity that is weighing in my heart. I don't know what to say. No language exists that can convey the vacuum inside of me.

That phone call. "I have some bad news." Through choking tears I knew what was coming and in my head all I...
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My friend is dead. This sucks. I don't know what to do or how to feel. I miss her. I miss her already.

My friend is dead.

An unwritten page.

Plain.

Clean, white, and undecorated walls.

Plaid shirt.

Neutral colored furniture.

The average looking car.

I am nothing in every way. I am plain yogurt on a shelf of a hundred or more flavors. I give nothing unique because it is not within me to give. I am everything that goes into what most people overlook or pass off as mundane.

I...
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You ever have a feeling of impending doom for what appears to be no reason? Should it be taken lightly?

I have a feeling like something really bad has happened or is going to very very soon. To me specifically. I'm ansty, nervous, and on edge all of a sudden. There is really no reason for it but I can't seem to shake it. Upset...
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The year is young and already I'm fucking pissed off by a story in the news. Just another reason why I fucking hate the police.

TAMPA, Florida (AP) -- A college student who told police she had been raped was jailed for two days after officers found an old warrant accusing her of failing to pay restitution for a 2003 theft arrest.

While she was...
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