charitee

Decisions made can haunt you with time,
Breakdown your spirit and scar your mind.
When they turn out to be wrong, a sadness moves in,
The confusion overbearing, you lose where to begin.

I second guess if what I've done is right,
Alone I sit, calm and still in the night.
The instinct I have is to completely trust,
Yet I've done this before, to be strong, I must.

It's amazing how familiar this feeling is,
One day I'm wanted, the next I'm not missed.
It seems as if heartache has become my fate,
The depression sets in, the pain too great.

Ever since my youth, I've developed this way,
I torture myself, a secret price to pay.
No longer do I hope for better days,
For I know it inevitable what I must face.

A decision that will break me for once and for all,
It's not mine to make, but I'm the one who will fall.

(Thank you again Colleen)