What you need to know....
Dance as though no one is watching
Love as though you have never been hurt before
Sing as though no one can hear you
Live as though heaven is on earth
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It occurs to me that maybe no one understands me. I don't necessarily mean that in a bad way, but rather in a way which makes it impossible to grasp who I am as a person. So think of this as a revelation blog. A way for me to pour out into the open who i am. For those who quite don't understand what to expect of me...
When asked if I take responsibility for the way I act, If I accept the way I am...I now tell you how I am and know that I do realize my failings as a person emotionally.
I realize I am an over emotional person, and have anger problems in certain situations that once they manifest, is a horrible sight to witness. I realize that I am insecure in so many ways. I'm scared and horrified at the idea of being alone. These are my failings...this is my baggage. This is what anyone who is with me would have to deal with. but there is so much more...so much more to me than this...
What I am is intensity. In everything I do. I love with the love of a thousand hearts and when i choose to love you...I give you everything I have. My world for you. You have my heart. You have my soul. And In return I love you with the passion of a thousand intimate nights of romance. I treat you like a princess, I sacrifice to make you happy, I spend my time on you, giving you what you ask for, pleasing you in anyway that I can, because I care for you more than you could ever know. I give you my heart, Put myself out there. I am an open book from the beginning and I guarantee you that you will not find another person like me. When I choose to love you, you become my best friend. I want to take you out to new restaurants. Find new places I have never been before and take you there. Explore...be adventurous...do things you want to do because when I am with you...It is all fun. In everything that we do. Shopping for clothes, going to the mall, it's about spending time together, getting to know each other in the most intimate of ways because I give with the knowledge that we will be together possibly forever. So yes, I throw my heart out there and hope and pray it doesn't get crushed. But you also get another side of me. If you give me reason to be jealous I cant be a very jealous person because I am such intense emotion...in every way. If you give me reason to be angry I can be a very angry person because I am amplified. Never would I hit you...but you will know my anger. You get good and bad within me. A soul that strives to find love and happiness and exerts so much passion, so much romance and raw power that not too many find they can handle.
But if you can...I can be a magnificent lover. Years of honing from one failed relationship to another has taught me how to pleasure women, how to make you happy. And although I have my own desires and I can be somewhat selfish in someways...you will always be fulfilled in bed and out of bed. Not everyone is perfect. We all carry some baggage from our past that we have to live with. We make mistakes, we all have personality flaws that we have to deal with. It's life. It's the process of developing and being hurt. All my 30 years has taught me what kind of a person I am. Ive changed, I'm not the same person I was when I was 20. I live by a whole new set of morals, principles, Ideals...I used to be so selfish....now I give myself away too easily in hopes that maybe when I give you my heart...I won't have to search anymore.
So this is me...this is what anyone who is interested in knowing can expect. For my friends...it is the same. If you make it into my heart as a friend I will die for you...as long as you don't betray me. I am a passion personified...a lover intensified...and yes i have my flaws, but don't we all.
In the end...the question is whether you can handle me...for I burn as bright as a thousand suns and you choose whether you get burnt or let my heart warm you and shield you from harm.
--Forever and Always--
--J--
Dance as though no one is watching
Love as though you have never been hurt before
Sing as though no one can hear you
Live as though heaven is on earth
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It occurs to me that maybe no one understands me. I don't necessarily mean that in a bad way, but rather in a way which makes it impossible to grasp who I am as a person. So think of this as a revelation blog. A way for me to pour out into the open who i am. For those who quite don't understand what to expect of me...
When asked if I take responsibility for the way I act, If I accept the way I am...I now tell you how I am and know that I do realize my failings as a person emotionally.
I realize I am an over emotional person, and have anger problems in certain situations that once they manifest, is a horrible sight to witness. I realize that I am insecure in so many ways. I'm scared and horrified at the idea of being alone. These are my failings...this is my baggage. This is what anyone who is with me would have to deal with. but there is so much more...so much more to me than this...
What I am is intensity. In everything I do. I love with the love of a thousand hearts and when i choose to love you...I give you everything I have. My world for you. You have my heart. You have my soul. And In return I love you with the passion of a thousand intimate nights of romance. I treat you like a princess, I sacrifice to make you happy, I spend my time on you, giving you what you ask for, pleasing you in anyway that I can, because I care for you more than you could ever know. I give you my heart, Put myself out there. I am an open book from the beginning and I guarantee you that you will not find another person like me. When I choose to love you, you become my best friend. I want to take you out to new restaurants. Find new places I have never been before and take you there. Explore...be adventurous...do things you want to do because when I am with you...It is all fun. In everything that we do. Shopping for clothes, going to the mall, it's about spending time together, getting to know each other in the most intimate of ways because I give with the knowledge that we will be together possibly forever. So yes, I throw my heart out there and hope and pray it doesn't get crushed. But you also get another side of me. If you give me reason to be jealous I cant be a very jealous person because I am such intense emotion...in every way. If you give me reason to be angry I can be a very angry person because I am amplified. Never would I hit you...but you will know my anger. You get good and bad within me. A soul that strives to find love and happiness and exerts so much passion, so much romance and raw power that not too many find they can handle.
But if you can...I can be a magnificent lover. Years of honing from one failed relationship to another has taught me how to pleasure women, how to make you happy. And although I have my own desires and I can be somewhat selfish in someways...you will always be fulfilled in bed and out of bed. Not everyone is perfect. We all carry some baggage from our past that we have to live with. We make mistakes, we all have personality flaws that we have to deal with. It's life. It's the process of developing and being hurt. All my 30 years has taught me what kind of a person I am. Ive changed, I'm not the same person I was when I was 20. I live by a whole new set of morals, principles, Ideals...I used to be so selfish....now I give myself away too easily in hopes that maybe when I give you my heart...I won't have to search anymore.
So this is me...this is what anyone who is interested in knowing can expect. For my friends...it is the same. If you make it into my heart as a friend I will die for you...as long as you don't betray me. I am a passion personified...a lover intensified...and yes i have my flaws, but don't we all.
In the end...the question is whether you can handle me...for I burn as bright as a thousand suns and you choose whether you get burnt or let my heart warm you and shield you from harm.
--Forever and Always--
--J--
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chaoticmonkey:
Why yes....yes it is!!!!
cassy:
that's actually really awesome....so nice talking to you 