chaoticmonkey

-Never Ending Conflicts-

There is a hatred that burns within me
Stripping away my humanity
as my rage grows ever deeper
as i spiral into the red hot depths of despair

With each passing day my mask becomes harder to wear
The contempt i hold becomes more unwieldy
I yearn to destroy...to unleash this inner strength
fueled by all the hate that has built up like bong resin.

If i take a deep breath, i can taste the ignorance of humanity
as it stings my tongue,
forcing me to cough out the poison
that has infected everyone and everything

It didnt use to be that way
Love use to be sacred
revered by all who embraced it
talked about with such awe

Dreams of the innocent
Touched by cupid
Two souls joined together in perfect harmony
Unbreakable bonds of unity

Where did it all go
When was it that the chains of lust and desire
wrapped rusted locks around a once so pure heart
squeezing and twisting the idea of romance from a mind that yearned for the joining

It is a simple primal sexual evil that has replaced a perfect balance
A twisted game of who is in control
who wont give up this control
it is this which has destroyed love

the echoes of caring and giving
of nurturing the spark
building the foundation upon which two souls become one
the primer used to bind two people together forever.

Faded are our ideals, our morals
understanding and the simple need to be with someone
a simple caress, a gentle kiss
lost are those things...replace by the inner workings of orgasmic pleasure

and every day, every moment i wish to feel that which has eluded me for so long
for it comes whispering the sweet sound of happiness
then fades away on the currents of the wind
leaving a cold numbing sensation of loss and regret

which diminishes me
until i have nothing left to give
until in the end
my soul fades with it