chaoticmonkey

Current Mood - Relaxed
Listening to - Robert Plant


For all of you that are my new friends in SG chat...I like to end my journals with a poem i made....

So its been a couple of months since i updated this thing. Im crazy lazy when it comes to keeping up on stuff like this...but anyway...I moved to my own place which is really great. Here is something interesting to note...has anyone ever had an old friend that they used to hang out with all the time and for some reason stopped hanging around with them? But then like forever later you meet up with them again and they are completely different even though you havent changed oine bit? Its amazing when that shit happens isnt it...and its even more amazing when its such a deep change that you cant even be friends with a person anymore....ccrraazzzyyyy

So anyway...I moved out of THAT friends house and into my own place and it has been freakin great to be on my own!!! Many of you know that im somewhat of a voyeur so being able to walk around naked all day is quite a pleasure!!!

I got a promotion after working at Staples for two months...Im now a lead in the electronics department. It is a great position...i get to boss people around that are in my department. Plus i got a healthy pay raise!!! I think i have always had a knack for sales...just friendly to customers i suppose...

I think i have been single for wayyyy tooooo long...and im starting to get depressed...and really fucking crazed...this is the longest i have EVER been single since i was like...15 and im 29!!! It is definately the longest i have ever gone without Sex since i was 18!!! Its driving me crazy. The last time i had sex was in a year and almost 6 months!!!! YOU KNOW!!!! ive had flings since then but it never went that far...

Im sad...im gonna cry for a sec..ok back. I really miss Columbus...I forgot how Anti-Social the real world could be although for my part i have made a couple of friends at a local bar that i go to and chill with. And i have a good friend or two here in Cleveland.

I get to see my Son alot too...which is really great...I dont think people with-out children understand how much love a father or mother can seriously have for their son/daughter because i love my son sooo much...he is so damn smart its amazing....and he is only 9!!! Im so proud of him its insane.

So this friday im getting my lebret pierced assuming my job allows it. then i will be growing a goatee just to change things up a bit. ive been used to dressing in the casual college clothing of OSU. Its time to add a bit of my old alternative look back into it.

Well there is sooo much more but ill save it for later....
I luv all of you...
--J--
Serian
ChaoticFactor

Oh and P.S.---Im also amazingly horrible at posting comments on peoples blogs so if i dont leave a comment...dont get mad....i just suck like that

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-Captured-

You can hold your hand under a clear cool stream
And let the water run through you
Feel the touch she plays upon your tingling nerves
As she caresses your skin with gentle fingers that never tire

You can look through the surface of this Babbling Brook
To the very depths of her soul
See complexity at what is beneath her, yet so simple in design
Carelessness is in the eyes of those who do not perceive the illusion for what it is

You can become mesmerized by the sound of her voice
As she whispers serenity into your heart and a everlasting peace into your soul
Listening to all the nothing she has to say, triviality with a purpose?
Her words are filled with the emotion of life, the need to be alive

You can become absorbed into her ever constant forever
What she draws to her, for good or for bad
Gaze at the crystal blue of heaven
Become engulfed by the hopes and dreams of many

Imagining a place where you could slip into her wet center
And let the waves of all of creation wash over you
Close your eyes and feel the power of her pull against your every piece and part
And struggle not to be consumed by the pure passion of the experience less you drown

And you can become transfixed
Unable to concentrate as the overwhelming need to exist
Within the calm she brings pervades your every thought
Circling your heart she can steal away your will leaving you defenseless before her beauty

It is a Dangerous Game to play
Letting the currents of life take control of your love
The everlasting stream of necessity beckons
Waiting for you to take the plunge, just as you hope this will be the day