So with about 30 days to go until my 35th birthday, I've decided to take inventory of my life thus far. For starters, obviously for the moment I am still alive, and thankful for that. I am employed, even if it is only guaranteed until the end of the year. I have a roof over my head, which is never a bad thing. I have an amazing 2 and a half year old son that inspires me every day just by being here. You would never guess from looking at him that none of the doctors who saw him the day he was born thought he would make it. Shows what they know! There's the wife and girlfriend (whom I live with. . .both of them). That is a long complicated story that I will get into another time. And finally I'm on medication to help me deal with the anxiety and depression I should have dealt with almost 16 years ago when my parents passed away; but I was 19 at the time and thought I could handle it on my own. That mistake had its pluses and minuses. Had I done things differently, I may not have everything I have today. I try not to dwell on the ifs, maybes, couldas wouldas or shouldas. My life is what it is, and all I can do is continue making what I can of it. I have recently started looking at things from I like to call the "Phoenix perspective," which is: Live, Love, Crash, Burn, Rise (rinse and repeat). No one is ever going to "win them all" and certainly no one should ever "lose them all." We will all have our ups and downs in life, and maybe even our lefts and rights. The only thing we can do is always remember to push through the bullshit because somewhere in this giant clusterfuck of a crackerjack box we call life, is the prize that's worth all the effort that goes into finding it. Be well, be safe, and be sure you're living your life for you; cuz it's the only one you get as far as we know.
Kaos out.
Kaos out.