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Im thinking I want to write right now

Ive spent the day collecting art on the internet. Collecting and harvesting. Its been a strange day up here in Toronto for me.

Family is a strange, strange concept. I never had much of one, or when it was there, chaos and dysfuntion ruled. Yet we managed to spend Christmas together, no matter what was going on. My Dad would be in his Chefs coat, ready to bolt out the door while my brother and I would frantically open every gift with such enthusiasm it would light up the whole room. My mother with the camera telling my Father to sit down and rest of a minute before he 'wouldnt see the kids' for the rest of the holidays. Ah, the glamorous life of an Executive Chef.

I spent my last week being sick. Awfully sick.
Im better now. There was alot of blood in my phlegm. I was worried for a bit, but it went away as fast as it came.

The year is ending.... so much has happened this year.... I could write a book I swear...

If you live in Ontario, and havent heard of Basia Bulat then you have been living under a rock. Shes quite amazing, and all things good.

I wish I could upload songs to my iPod, but I dont have a program to download these things. Wait- much less... a computer.....

The nights I walk home from work, in the cold..... I find myself so extremely happy I cry. I love this damn iceberg so much... its weird I had to find that love 3000 miles away from it, in a home that wasnt mine.

I received the best christmas card from my dearest friend and his boy.... if you could see it.. you would cry.
oh what the hell.
you can see it too..


Merry Christmas indeed. Its on my fridge right now and my roommate and I laugh each time were in the kitchen.

SO much to look to next year, so many plans. Toronto is extremely beautiful in the summer. I might stay because I can.

By the fire in the Distillery District:


That was a fun night.

Im thinking Im going to fill up my left leg with Owl tattoos. Lots of them

This is alot of writing... isnt it? I cant help it for the moment.

January is going to be so incredibly slow. at. work. Someone tell me what I should do in my spare time. I think Im going to try to bake different cupcakes every day. I found this blog with all these recipes and one of them has mini doughnuts on them. Delicious.
And try taking more photos. I want a polaroid camera for Christmas (hint)

If your around on Wednesday, Im going for beers. Come join me!

That is all.
happy Holidays everyone.
C.