So I'm going to be moving to Florida in a few months. Kind of mixed on how to feel about it. My Sister is in Florida which is why I'm moving there. I'm excited to be close to her but the idea of making new friends sucks. I'm not much of an extravert so meeting people is a little rough for me. I'm sure it will work out. People do this kind of thing all the time so I can too. I do kind of like the idea of reinventing myself so to speak. Get a fresh new start. Of course people say that shit all the time. Who I am isn't going to change just because I move somewhere new but the idea that people don't have any expectations of me makes me feel free to try being and doing something a little different. I think people's expectations can confine a person more than what most would think. Although even if the expectations are eliminated that person has to be aware that they have been eliminated and that they must eliminate them from their own mind as well. The last is by far the hardest. We are always our own worst enemy. Life is war fought for an elusive freedom that is never truly realized. I hope for the joy of short lived victories and of spending time with loved ones in the brief intermissions between battling both my internal and external demons. Dismal huh? I save my optimism for others not myself. That's a battle I have yet to win. But joy, no matter how fleeting, is worth waging war. Can't really enjoy anything if your dead. Bringing a smile to someone's face or the tender touch of a loved one makes all the pain worth it.
Anyhow, I have a way of getting side tracked. There's still a lot to be done before I can move. I hope it will only take a couple of months. Being in the middle of winter in Colorado the warm beaches of Florida sound really good. I also love snorkeling and hopefully I can get certified for scuba diving when I'm out there. If things work out I'd like to go back to school for marine biology. I also am thinking about trying my hand at beekeeping. But right now I just have to focus on packing and getting my place ready to sell. That's it for now.