I had a pretty gnarly weekend. Well, a pretty gnarly long weekend actually, since I didn't go to work Friday or Monday. Not looking forward to my next payday though. I've altered my budget so I can survive on $700/pay rather then $1000/pay, thanks to a much appreciated loan from Citi Finacial. So, as long as I can make $700 per payday, I'll do fine.
Friday I had my first session of councilling, and it was...... different. I've always had a problem with councilling, which is why I've neglected to go all these years, but because of the events that have happened in the last few months, I decided to give it another try, as it is become obvious that I can no longer do things on my own. MY problem with therapy is that they either try to put you on an ass load of medication so you feel like a zombie, or they try and brainwash you into feeling the way you're "supposed" to feel. Both of these things were what kept me away for such a long time, but the councilor I'm seeing now seems to be someone I can just talk to, rather then someone trying to change me. She would like me to go back onto medication, but she can't prescribe me any, so she's told me it's up to me if I do or not. She lives by the philosophy that only I can "fix" myself, so she's not going to try and do it for me. She's just going to give me her two cents on the issues that are bothering me, and I can do what I want from there. It's short-term therapy though, so I won't be there too long, so I want to cover as much ground as I can.
After therapy, I began setting up for stellar's massage. She's been really tense and stressed because of work, and I know what that's like, so I decided to help her unwind a bit. I went to The Body Shop and got some massage oil and some aromatherapy oils and shit, then to Chapters to get a book on massaging. I think it went ok, and I'd like to do it more often, maybe to a point where I can become her weekly spa treatment/detox
I think I enjoy giving her massages more then I would enjoy having one done to myself. I've always had issues with people touching my back, so I don't see a massage as something that particularly appeals to me. But that might change, who knows. Bottom line is I enjoyed myself, and it seemed that she did too, so at the very least it's something we can do on Fridays when we're out of ideas.
Saturday I went to Derek's shop and jammed with him. It feels good to jam again with somebody, even if it wasn't productive per say. We both aren't nearly as good as we'd like to be with our instruments, but ti's always better to learn together I find, so it's a start. Maybe in a year or two I'll finally feel comfortable enough with my abilities on bass to go out and buy a Warwick. Besides jamming though, we also talked about what he wants to do with his shop and I gave my suggestions and concerns like a friend should. He's really come a long way since I first met him a couple years ago. In the past two years he's gone from doing deliveries for Swiss Chalet, to having a 5-foot table at a flea market with records, to having his own booth at the same flea market, to running his own shop, which is pretty impressive if you ask me. It makes me wish that I was confident enough to branch out into my own business, like running a recording studio or something, but at the same time I know in my heart that i'm a labourer and probably will be until the day I retire. There's nothing wrong with that, mind you, but it's nice to dream sometimes. I just worry that he's got a lot of ambition and drive, but I'm not really sure he understands how to run a business, or at least make a business successful. His record supply is going to dry up eventually, and unless he learns how to really manage his stock/inventory, he might run into a rude awakening some time soon. I wish him the best of luck though, and I'll help him out in any way I can.
Later, me and stellar headed out to dinner, then out to the movies where we ran into Josh and Jess, at the same show, at the same time. Ironically, they had invited us to bowling and we had said no, but somehow ended up at the same theater at the same time and not realizing it until after the show was done. The universe is weird. It was nice seeing them and their friend though, even if it was briefly.
Sunday I bought a new phone, and i love it. Seriously. That's pretty much a wrap for Sunday, other then the fact I didn't go to work and played lots of Guitar Hero. And today, I played even more Guitar Hero with Gary and Josh, then headed to bed. Now, I'm up and ready for work.
All in all, I'd give my weekend a 8/10 on a scale of awesomeness. Guitar Hero + naked girlfriend + new gadgets + friends + bass = ok by me
Random fact of the day: If I could change anything about myself right now, I would have my life on some kind of track by now, some kind of direction.
Friday I had my first session of councilling, and it was...... different. I've always had a problem with councilling, which is why I've neglected to go all these years, but because of the events that have happened in the last few months, I decided to give it another try, as it is become obvious that I can no longer do things on my own. MY problem with therapy is that they either try to put you on an ass load of medication so you feel like a zombie, or they try and brainwash you into feeling the way you're "supposed" to feel. Both of these things were what kept me away for such a long time, but the councilor I'm seeing now seems to be someone I can just talk to, rather then someone trying to change me. She would like me to go back onto medication, but she can't prescribe me any, so she's told me it's up to me if I do or not. She lives by the philosophy that only I can "fix" myself, so she's not going to try and do it for me. She's just going to give me her two cents on the issues that are bothering me, and I can do what I want from there. It's short-term therapy though, so I won't be there too long, so I want to cover as much ground as I can.
After therapy, I began setting up for stellar's massage. She's been really tense and stressed because of work, and I know what that's like, so I decided to help her unwind a bit. I went to The Body Shop and got some massage oil and some aromatherapy oils and shit, then to Chapters to get a book on massaging. I think it went ok, and I'd like to do it more often, maybe to a point where I can become her weekly spa treatment/detox
I think I enjoy giving her massages more then I would enjoy having one done to myself. I've always had issues with people touching my back, so I don't see a massage as something that particularly appeals to me. But that might change, who knows. Bottom line is I enjoyed myself, and it seemed that she did too, so at the very least it's something we can do on Fridays when we're out of ideas.Saturday I went to Derek's shop and jammed with him. It feels good to jam again with somebody, even if it wasn't productive per say. We both aren't nearly as good as we'd like to be with our instruments, but ti's always better to learn together I find, so it's a start. Maybe in a year or two I'll finally feel comfortable enough with my abilities on bass to go out and buy a Warwick. Besides jamming though, we also talked about what he wants to do with his shop and I gave my suggestions and concerns like a friend should. He's really come a long way since I first met him a couple years ago. In the past two years he's gone from doing deliveries for Swiss Chalet, to having a 5-foot table at a flea market with records, to having his own booth at the same flea market, to running his own shop, which is pretty impressive if you ask me. It makes me wish that I was confident enough to branch out into my own business, like running a recording studio or something, but at the same time I know in my heart that i'm a labourer and probably will be until the day I retire. There's nothing wrong with that, mind you, but it's nice to dream sometimes. I just worry that he's got a lot of ambition and drive, but I'm not really sure he understands how to run a business, or at least make a business successful. His record supply is going to dry up eventually, and unless he learns how to really manage his stock/inventory, he might run into a rude awakening some time soon. I wish him the best of luck though, and I'll help him out in any way I can.
Later, me and stellar headed out to dinner, then out to the movies where we ran into Josh and Jess, at the same show, at the same time. Ironically, they had invited us to bowling and we had said no, but somehow ended up at the same theater at the same time and not realizing it until after the show was done. The universe is weird. It was nice seeing them and their friend though, even if it was briefly.
Sunday I bought a new phone, and i love it. Seriously. That's pretty much a wrap for Sunday, other then the fact I didn't go to work and played lots of Guitar Hero. And today, I played even more Guitar Hero with Gary and Josh, then headed to bed. Now, I'm up and ready for work.
All in all, I'd give my weekend a 8/10 on a scale of awesomeness. Guitar Hero + naked girlfriend + new gadgets + friends + bass = ok by me
Random fact of the day: If I could change anything about myself right now, I would have my life on some kind of track by now, some kind of direction.
I keep forgetting to ask you whether you want to go to the SG Gala in June? I've been meaning to ask Kev too, but.....you know how I am with that......
And shower.
And car.
And backyard.
And hot tub.
And kitchen.
And bathroom.
..........Yeah.