So I weighed myself yesterday, and in five weeks, I've lost 18lbs/8.16kg. All from cutting down on the excess snacking I'd gotten into the habit of doing at work, and watching my calories more closely. I'd say exercise was part of that, but it hasn't played a huge part except in the first half, as my girlfriend got sick for a few weeks, so I ended up staying home from the gym to be with her (even if I didn't get sick myself).
Curious to see what it'll be like when I go back next week. I can see the contour of abs hidden beneath the surface, and I'd like to see them more closely one day, if only for a short while. Maybe I can even show them off on the beach in a few months, or here, once I'm more confident in myself again. I'd like to be more confident in my body again. I know it's a stupid and shallow thing to miss given its impermanence, but I miss when people thought I was hot, and I had the confidence (and support) to be a thot.
Of course, I didn't help anything by eating a whole bunch of chips and several sandwiches last night, but so long as I'm taking more steps forward than back, I guess the occasional indulgence is okay.