I've always been into bdsm Ive always been a bit of a sadist and a masochist. Ive always been able to recognize deep pain or trauma within someone and pick out those who chose to deal with it in a similar fashion as I have learned.ive always lived with pain and found ways to deal with it.or ways to help others deal with their own. Sometimes, when you live with pain long enough, you start to miss it when its gone.Or, if it's an ever present part of your life it can become somewhat comforting if and when you learn to befriend it.it becomes the one friend maybe that never deserts you. You discover how to adapt it and use it how and when you can.you find a way to apply it theraputically where and how and when you need it.in this way you sort of master it, and take back from it some of what it first took from you to the best of your ability.you make it work for you not against you. This is how I got into bdsm. An attraction to the pain in myself & others, an attraction to the strength in myself and others.an attraction to our combined wills and close partnerships set on using and mastering pain and ourselves. A combined or mutual attraction to the similar way we people use this to better ourselves.and an amazing attraction to and appreciation for the resulting bond that grew out of everything after this, or grew between things before this, and grew while on this journey between all involved.
