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that will be me in less than 20 days...except, i'll be less blurry and less cartoon like.
Have any of you people been to an Indian wedding? No? Me neither. I'm nervous, my Indian family is a bit wacky at times. I've never worn a sari before in my entire life. I just got one on Saturday (well three actually, but one for the wedding) and am currently walking around my house with a long sheet tied to my body kicking the bottom around to practise walking in it. I feel like such a geek.
I was reading about saris today. Man, these things are sexy. When I wear mine I feel so..wrapped up, like a birthday present waiting for somebody to come and unwrap me. Such a sexual thing, a piece of fabric wrapped to your body to "conceal all and reveal all". Very sensual. Very sexy.

My life has been pretty uneventful in the past three days. I've been so bummed out, just flopping around my house. My stepmom and stepsister get here in about two weeks..I'm nervous. I dunno how exactly I'm going to deal with this, so I think I'm just going to wait until it happens and stand in the aftermath and survey the damage. That's what I usually do anyways.
The questions are already coming in..I feel so cryptic at times, like I'm holding these things in which are slowly killing me. I guess the thing about it is it robs your mind, slow rotting, slow poisoning. All your fears surface and you drown in them, a giant current dragging you down. I don't know how to explain things better..never do, never can.

I feel like drowing in a vat of coffee and cigarettes.

1) Are you close to your family?
2) Are you going anywhere this summer?

Have a good Wednesday