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Hey hello!

So I've been growing my natural hair colour out which is strawberry blonde and not wearing as much foundation to cover my freckles on my nose etc (I'm not fully ginger, and I don't have a lot of freckles, but regardless I fall into the 'red head' category). This may not seem like a big deal but for me it is, its a
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oldernow:
your story reminds me of Jane Campion (Campian?) ... such an ugly way to start puberty - and such terrible cruelty .. i'm from a different era, and bullying was not tolerated - most people didn't go on to college and getting expelled from high school meant no job, so there was some real teeth in that punishment.  I wonder when the tide changed and teachers gave up trying to control classrooms.. hopefully it will turn again soon..
jawbreak3r:
Taking control of your life and emotions is the best. Super happy you are coming to terms with who you are. Yes, it is an emotional roller coaster and there will be some up and downs and scary parts, but it sounds like you are learning to adjust with life in general. Letting go is the best part forgiving is easy forgetting is hard. Just wanted to let you know you are not alone, we All deal with insecurity, but grabbing hold of who you are and celebrating the unique person you are makes it all worth while. Do it with grace, passion and understanding. Phew that was a lot of words too. PS you're Hot!😉

SG Australia instagram competition!

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It would mean the world to me if you could pleeeease go and like the most recent photo of me on the sg.australia instagram page so I might have a chance at being the new profile picture :P please excuse my shitty drawing hahaha

Lots of love, Cerulean xoxoxo

(P.s. How cool would Cerulean Suicide sound if I ever turn pink :P)

mortis322:
It would be very good to hear and see you PINK!! 
jude78:
Done

New clawwwwssss

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Got new chrome nails so have a photo!

Remember to check out Cypress if you still haven't and show me some looooveeee!

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verdwaald:
Cute looking!!
freakme:
Oh my, gonna leave some scratches ;') Lovely

Thank you all so much for the love on 'Cypress' so far!

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I am honestly overwhelmed at the amount of love it's received in just over 24 hours! You are all so amazing!

If you haven't seen it yet, definitely check it out Here! It's by the amazing camera witch & wizard duo @frankndame and as a thank you here's a little sneaky behind the scenes from my next set with them ;)

Once again a massive
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freakme:
My goodness you're so sexy !

Get excitedddd!

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'Cypress' by the amazing @frankndame will be live soon!

I really love this set, it's very different from my others in the sense that it's in a very natural setting compared with my others (bedrooms and houses), and I, myself, am very natural. I am wearing makeup - but not the usual with winged eyeliner, a lot more natural. And, I have pubic hair in
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catdad:
Looking forward to it :)
cerulean:
Yay I'm glad your excited @coolicio <3 :D and thank youuuuuuu @catdad 

7.3.16 ~~

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Have one of my favourite shots from Smitten as a reminder that I still exist haha!

I am so excited to be shooting soon with @coolicio and @atlanticlungs again! Its been way too long and I'll probably get nervous all over again!

Back at uni now! Only three subjects after this semester and I will be finished! But I'll do an extra year to graduate
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titch:
Thankyou so much !!!!! Hope you have been enjoying your uni work :) I can't wait to see another set pop up from you! I adore your photos 😍 
cerulean:
@titch @coolicio @nebula @atlanticlungs thank you so much girls! Love you all to death! @catdad you're such an amazing supporter! @charger72 @ebz_1up thank you! <3

4.2.16 ✖

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Hey everyone! Wow its been over a month since I wrote my last blog D:

So sorry! As per usual my life has been absolutely ridiculous and I have had 0 time to sit down and actually write something - which I really really need to!

I'm still jobless which sucks, but hopefully that will change soon! I haven't done any recent shoots or anything...
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mortis322:
:( Wow that all does suck! More than enough reason to be m.i.a. from here!! Real life comes first but we're always here when needed. ^_^  Hope it all works out very soon for you.
milkydame:
Thinking of your family :( this is some terrible stuff you guys are all going through. Cannot wait to shoot with you very soon xoxox

2/1/16 ×

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Happy new year everyone! Here's a photo of me from when I wasn't feeling 200% horrible about myself haha!

So, pretty crap news, I won't be attending the next Australian SG shootfest due to a whole bunch of things, family drama, and just not feeling good about myself lately.

Hence the lack of photos also. I've been feeling very alone and just not right. I...
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mila:
So sad I won't be seeing you at the shootfest. Take care of yourself sweetie. 💕
cerulean:
Much love to you beautiful lady @coolicio ♡ | thank you so much @exkyu and we will definitely line something up! I cant wait to shoot with you and @countessa ♡♡♡ | thank you so much gorgeous @feena it means the world to me! | @catdad you're so kind and understanding of so much! Thank you for always supporting me dude, it really means ao much | @pnotrp I know right! Its just so weird  ): i hope you feel better soon too! | @ambra I know ): I am so sad I didnt go, but I know it was probably the right choice. I am also 100% sure that I will see you at some point as well as the rest of the amazing aus sg gang. Love you girl ♡♡♡

Everyone quickkkk!!!!!

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Everyone who has Instagram go to the @hopefulsuicidegirls page and like the photo of me! There's only 6 hours left before it's decided who the new profile picture is!

catdad:
Good luck!  I don't have IG or I'd help. 

Not sure what to do.

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So, I've been feeling this way for a while. And a lot of things are confirming it for me lately.

I'm just not good enough for SG. I highly doubt I'll ever get bought, I try and make friends within the community but it just goes unnoticed. I've tried to make friends with a few of the SG's in my community but I'm not good...
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anonymous389292:
xx chin up lovely lady. your beautiful inside and out and you are such a bright spark - don't let people and the world dampen your shine. 
cerulean:
@vinture I love youuuu
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