ceri

i can't seem to win at life, or even just not fail


*EDIT*


so i know i have been doing a lot of blogging lately, and it has mostly been venting and me being sad. i'm sorry, sorry that i haven't been a stronger person. i feel like i should have kept all of that to myself, and kinda wish i could take it all back and replace them with happy blogs.


at the moment I'm so confused. i might be making an effort to get back together with my ex, but it wouldn't be until after a month of being apart so we can see if it's what we both want. he says how much he's sorry he hurt me and how much he misses me, and wants to be with me, but i have to be sure it's just not him feeling lonely, and that it really does have to do with me.
i know things haven't been great in our relationship, but there has been a lot of good, i mean if there was no good i would've left sooner right? i have no idea if this is the course of action that is the best, all i know is i love him still, with all my heart, and at this moment in time i don't want to lose him.

i'm trying to stay strong, but it's hard.

thank you again everyone who has been here for me through all of this