ceremony

today one of my best friends left me a voicemail that, i swear to god, made me cry. it was the last thing i expected to hear, but sometimes hearing that someone - anyone - is confident that you have the ability to change the world at precisely the time you thought you'd hear a banal sort of "call me back when you get a chance" message is beautiful. i saved the message, right alongside the one in which the same friend sang me a kimya dawson song.

i'm about halfway through reading "anna karenina" and it's dense and amazing, and i wish i had someone to talk about it with but everyone looks at me as a freak since i'm reading it for my own enjoyment. i also discovered the knife today, a fabulous glitch-pop brother/sister duo from stockholm that make dark and beautiful music. and that hot chip is really, really overrated, except for that one "over and over"/"just like we (breakdown) (DFA remix)" single, but then again anything DFA produced/remixed is fucking great.

i feel that things are going to start changing soon. already one of my best friends at college isn't coming back because she's having a baby (a baby! either she's really immature or we're all growing up and getting older) and i might have a potential lust interest on my hands when i get back to sarasota. either way, i'm dyeing my hair once more before i go back to school (probably red again, but perhaps a more vibrant shade), maybe buying something new and pretty for myself, and getting ready for that change. i need it more than ever.