i enjoy all-you-can-eat sushi and comic book & record stores as much as anyone. i also enjoy sitting at home by myself and reading.
today i did both and finished book #1 of 12 or 13 that are on my summer reading list. i started book #2, which is a reread of a book that i'd like a second and closer, more analytical look at ("woman hating" by andrea dworkin if you were wondering. don't make fun of me, i'm not a "feminazi," thanks). i'm afraid of overdosing on feminist literature this summer but i don't think that'll happen.
reading "the female eunuch" has made me reconsider the dynamics of my romantic relationships though, and i think i might try to stay out of those for a while until i can actually have them on my own terms. it isn't that i'm feeling oppressed so much that i don't feel as though i am necessarily an equal legislator in these relationships - i tend to "fall into" them and not realize where i am and what i've done until i step back and think, "oh. well, shit." add that to what i feel is my tendency to be emotionally drained by others and as a result i'm a bit fed up. i'm no victim, but to avoid being one i have to take control of myself. never fear though, i'm still sex-positive. haha. i guess i'll just wait until i find a person that i can have control of myself with.
yeah yeah blah blah blah feminist shit. anyway, my goals for tomorrow:
- eat more sushi.
- turn in/pick up more job applications.
- buy that dress i've been coveting for the past week. well, if it's still at express and still available in my size.
- buy hair dye? i'd really like to dye my hair a jean grey-esque shade of red, but perhaps more on the brown side. i think it could work.
- movies with genevieve. i think i'll make her watch "waiting." she works at ruby tuesday and would appreciate it.
- see who wants to go to crush on thursday, or miami this weekend. natalia has a boy for me to meet. (& meeting new boys is nice and i'm always hoping to find one i can connect with. on my own terms!)
-bittorrent the marvel civil war comic that came out recently because i couldn't finish reading it at the comic book store today before i had to leave.
also, i had the new xiu xiu album specially leaked to me and it is beautiful and amazing and broke my heart. being reminded that i have emotions other than self-righteousness and resentment is nice.
today i did both and finished book #1 of 12 or 13 that are on my summer reading list. i started book #2, which is a reread of a book that i'd like a second and closer, more analytical look at ("woman hating" by andrea dworkin if you were wondering. don't make fun of me, i'm not a "feminazi," thanks). i'm afraid of overdosing on feminist literature this summer but i don't think that'll happen.
reading "the female eunuch" has made me reconsider the dynamics of my romantic relationships though, and i think i might try to stay out of those for a while until i can actually have them on my own terms. it isn't that i'm feeling oppressed so much that i don't feel as though i am necessarily an equal legislator in these relationships - i tend to "fall into" them and not realize where i am and what i've done until i step back and think, "oh. well, shit." add that to what i feel is my tendency to be emotionally drained by others and as a result i'm a bit fed up. i'm no victim, but to avoid being one i have to take control of myself. never fear though, i'm still sex-positive. haha. i guess i'll just wait until i find a person that i can have control of myself with.
yeah yeah blah blah blah feminist shit. anyway, my goals for tomorrow:
- eat more sushi.
- turn in/pick up more job applications.
- buy that dress i've been coveting for the past week. well, if it's still at express and still available in my size.
- buy hair dye? i'd really like to dye my hair a jean grey-esque shade of red, but perhaps more on the brown side. i think it could work.
- movies with genevieve. i think i'll make her watch "waiting." she works at ruby tuesday and would appreciate it.
- see who wants to go to crush on thursday, or miami this weekend. natalia has a boy for me to meet. (& meeting new boys is nice and i'm always hoping to find one i can connect with. on my own terms!)
-bittorrent the marvel civil war comic that came out recently because i couldn't finish reading it at the comic book store today before i had to leave.
also, i had the new xiu xiu album specially leaked to me and it is beautiful and amazing and broke my heart. being reminded that i have emotions other than self-righteousness and resentment is nice.
nikoli20:
I fucking hate having emotions. I wish I could control them better like a man.