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I realized today how far out of the Kaleido-loop I am. I mean, Tommy came out to his father, Justin's living with somebody, Chris bought a hotel, broke up with Kristen (who's now living with Denise & the kids) and hooked up with Jasmine (who's I'm sorry, kinda skanky looking) and and so much other stuff I didn't know about. I mean, where was I when all of this happened? I'm really kinda sad about it. I sound like such a loser saying this but: I have no friends. Ashley, who is the second person I asked to be one of my bridesmaids hasn't called me back in months, not days like usual, I haven't spoken to her since...July or August. Mike's off in New York doing his own thing and I don't even know if he's coming home for Christmas given what happened last year (his sister was thrown in jail for the attempted murder of their mother). And all of my other compadres besides Shan, have disappeared. Maybe I'm not a high priority on anybody's list, but why not? I don't understand how people work. How (and I don't mean to quote a movie here) can people be such a vital part of your life one day and then the next day be gone? HOW DOES THAT WORK? I'm so lonely. I'm sick of my parents saying that I'm so obsessed with Tim that I don't talk to my friends anymore. My "friends" aren't exactly beating my door down to see me. I dunno. It just makes me sad.