Have you ever took a step back, and looked at your life and said OMG what have I done? I have been doing that for the past couple of months.
In the past 14 years of my life, I have made poor decisions. First off I got married in 94 on the rebound. Should have know it wouldn't work. He was a women hater. Felt women needed to stand 50 feet away look pretty and keep our mouths shut. Yap one of those keep them barefoot and pregnant kind. The only thing good out of 8 years was my 2 kids.
Next came the divorce was not pretty. Plus bad decisions on dating men. I felt like I was no good, and just wanted someone to love me and my children for who we are.
Then I meet BOTB. Who took us in and loved us the way we wanted to be loved. But more drama in that picture. During the 1st year we found out about his daughter, my dad passed away. As for his ex taking us to court every other week. 2005 was not a good year.
Now at 32 I look and think what have I done with my life. I wipe ass for a living. Can't afford to go back to school. Left a job of 6 years, thinking I was going to become a RN. I feel like I have wasted so much of what I could have done.
Now is time for me to make up for those lost years. I need to take control again of my life and move forward strong.
In the past 14 years of my life, I have made poor decisions. First off I got married in 94 on the rebound. Should have know it wouldn't work. He was a women hater. Felt women needed to stand 50 feet away look pretty and keep our mouths shut. Yap one of those keep them barefoot and pregnant kind. The only thing good out of 8 years was my 2 kids.
Next came the divorce was not pretty. Plus bad decisions on dating men. I felt like I was no good, and just wanted someone to love me and my children for who we are.
Then I meet BOTB. Who took us in and loved us the way we wanted to be loved. But more drama in that picture. During the 1st year we found out about his daughter, my dad passed away. As for his ex taking us to court every other week. 2005 was not a good year.
Now at 32 I look and think what have I done with my life. I wipe ass for a living. Can't afford to go back to school. Left a job of 6 years, thinking I was going to become a RN. I feel like I have wasted so much of what I could have done.
Now is time for me to make up for those lost years. I need to take control again of my life and move forward strong.
bubz:
More power to ya! Yeah ,that sounds like a rough go of it ,but you made it through. I often look back myself and slap myself in the forehead.