Private entry
Bit of a weird weekend. Great team bonding for my crew at the firm's quiz night followed by a very down Saturday & Sunday. Most of the time I am either thinking in the now with Cheryl or thinking how to cope looking after Emily when she is gone but I spent most of the weekend thinking how empty it will be without Cheryl. Cheryl is still not getting better and the heavy chemo is almost over, which I take to mean that it didn't work. She looked so pale and got tired so quickly on Sunday afternoon. And Cheryl got so angry with me when she saw how worried I was. I seriously think we are in our final 12 months - and I can't believe it. Rationally I can work out what must be done but emotionally I cannot see how I can function without her. I love her and have always loved her so much.
Bit of a weird weekend. Great team bonding for my crew at the firm's quiz night followed by a very down Saturday & Sunday. Most of the time I am either thinking in the now with Cheryl or thinking how to cope looking after Emily when she is gone but I spent most of the weekend thinking how empty it will be without Cheryl. Cheryl is still not getting better and the heavy chemo is almost over, which I take to mean that it didn't work. She looked so pale and got tired so quickly on Sunday afternoon. And Cheryl got so angry with me when she saw how worried I was. I seriously think we are in our final 12 months - and I can't believe it. Rationally I can work out what must be done but emotionally I cannot see how I can function without her. I love her and have always loved her so much.