Women suck.
That's the way I always felt.
My mom was a cuntrag, my stepmom abused me, pretty much every woman ever in my life has dissappointed me in almost every way.
Then I found D'Arcy.
Yes, the bass player for the Smashing Pumpkins.
She was hardcore inspirational to me.
I saw her as a good, clean, strong female.
Here was some woman that was holding her own in a male dominated world without using sexuality to get what she wanted. She overcame feelings of inadaquacy and recovered quite successfull from an eating disorder.
D'Arcy said, "fuck the world. Here I am, and I'm gonna do what I want!"
Then she went and got caught with 3 bags of crack rocks.
Thats right, not 3 rocks - 3 BAGS of rock.
Conviction? Possession with intent to sell.
Sentence? Drug awareness classes.
Outcome? A fuckload of plastic surgery.
Here was the one woman in my life that seemed to have their shit together and she had nothing together. She was a liar, she was a druggie, she wasn't truly as happy with herself as she pretended to be.
My life was shattered.
I felt so angry with her.
But then I realised that she had no way of knowing that I looked up to her so greatly.
The day I realised that, I also realised that there's no way I can know who looks up to me.
I made changes in my life so I could be the best role model possible.
Sure, I haven't been a fuckin' saint but I'm trying my hardest. I'm doing the best that I can so nobody will have their life shattered by my actions.
And I think everyone should live that way.
Think "WWID"... What Would I Do?
When faced with a situation, think about what you can do to be honorable and upstanding.
Think about who may be looking up to you.
Yes, we all have an obligation to ourselves first. Never should we do something that would compromise our personal morals for "the good".
Just think about how your choices could affect the world as a whole.
That's the way I always felt.
My mom was a cuntrag, my stepmom abused me, pretty much every woman ever in my life has dissappointed me in almost every way.
Then I found D'Arcy.
Yes, the bass player for the Smashing Pumpkins.
She was hardcore inspirational to me.
I saw her as a good, clean, strong female.
Here was some woman that was holding her own in a male dominated world without using sexuality to get what she wanted. She overcame feelings of inadaquacy and recovered quite successfull from an eating disorder.
D'Arcy said, "fuck the world. Here I am, and I'm gonna do what I want!"
Then she went and got caught with 3 bags of crack rocks.
Thats right, not 3 rocks - 3 BAGS of rock.
Conviction? Possession with intent to sell.
Sentence? Drug awareness classes.
Outcome? A fuckload of plastic surgery.
Here was the one woman in my life that seemed to have their shit together and she had nothing together. She was a liar, she was a druggie, she wasn't truly as happy with herself as she pretended to be.
My life was shattered.
I felt so angry with her.
But then I realised that she had no way of knowing that I looked up to her so greatly.
The day I realised that, I also realised that there's no way I can know who looks up to me.
I made changes in my life so I could be the best role model possible.
Sure, I haven't been a fuckin' saint but I'm trying my hardest. I'm doing the best that I can so nobody will have their life shattered by my actions.
And I think everyone should live that way.
Think "WWID"... What Would I Do?
When faced with a situation, think about what you can do to be honorable and upstanding.
Think about who may be looking up to you.
Yes, we all have an obligation to ourselves first. Never should we do something that would compromise our personal morals for "the good".
Just think about how your choices could affect the world as a whole.
My ex-band member had a similar experience when her heroine, Courtney Love, got plastic surgery.