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One of my dogs had pups last night. I was acting as a sort of midwife because she wasn't taking the pups out of their bags fast enough and the first one nearly suffocated because of it. Watching life being created is wonderful.

I want to be a vet.

Freak out
And give in
Doesn't matter what you believe in
Stay cool
And be somebody's fool this year
'cause they know
Who is righteous, what is bold
So I'm told

Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?

Hipsters unite
Come align for the big fight to rock for you
But beware
All those angels with their wings glued...
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Due to fuckwit brother, we have no central heating. Penguins don't have it this bad.

So today, as part of Starbucks 'community relations project' I spent 5 hours handing out free coffee and tea to single mothers with pre-school children.

I got there for 9:30. 26 families had been notified of the event, but by 11:30 none had shown...getting frustrated the organisers phoned a local kindergarten and got some of the mums there to bring the kids down. The aim...
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You kill 50 people in Iraq you'd be hailed as a hero.
You kill 50 convicts in Texas and you're Governor.
You kill one person in self defence and you're a murderous bastard.

Go figure.

I hate hospitals

My City

I've always had a strong sense of local pride and I love Manchester, because there is so much beauty here even though it is the very epitome of man-made progression. Lights and cityscapes make me go all gooey inside....

I wrote a song today. With music and words and Everything. And it felt good.

Exorcising some demons.

Jungle Fever, dir.Spike Lee starring Wesley Snipes, Samuel L Jackson, Spike Lee

Lee's talent for portraying racial tensions are again evident in this film, but just to make it even more interesting, we deal with the subject of inter-racial relationships. We again focus on the Italian and Afro-American communities, and again we have a number of angles with which to explore the interaction between them....
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I try to escape into my world of music and films, but al I see and hear are reflections of my own problems. It doesn't make me feel better to know other people have got similar problems, it makes me feels worse because then I become jus another number and I hate statistics.

I can't escape my thoughts and I fear for my mental welfare....
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Much emotions today. Much.

A sense of well being because I feel I am growing more as a person and I every day I am more able to be happy on my own. But also this brings loneliness because of my self-imposed isolation and I feel myself growing distant from my friends. Anxiety because I want this band to work, to actually go somewhere but...
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So on sunday 'demonraizer' (not my idea) have their first rehearsal, i'm slightly apprehensive coz I don't wanna fuck my throat up but I reckon the guys are expecting pretty mad things from me. I'm gonna have to start another band in oreder to fulfill my heart's desire of being in a sigur ros/mogwai stylee band.

Such is life.