cbomb

awww thank u all for ur kind words! Everyday is getting better for me. break ups really suck but as a girl I know I AM STRONGER than I look. and i will be ok on my own. til i find someone better. or whatever. I'm doing good. i still am sad. i love him. but if he cant see what he's losing then its his loss. the thing is he's sending me mixed signals and i need some male perspective. he calls me at 4am the other day kinda tipsy and says "i miss u im so depressed and lonly....please dont take this as a booty call, i just need to cuddle u...can i please come over..." and i gave in and he came over and held me like all night. and then stayed like all day too. and he hasnt given bck my stuff. he keeps "forgetting" but he keeps txting me. and prolonging things and finding excuses to come over.

i know he's depressed and lonely. he keeps telling me. i told him i had a date and got asked out and he got really upset. i shldnt have told him but i was feeling upset and mean. and we banter back and forth about things. its friendly so im not sure if im in the friend zone or if he just really is confused and doesnt know what he wants.....

im trying not to keep holding on i dont want my heart broken twice. so im going away for a week to miami to visit my party girl best friend and he knows im going, you shoulda seen his face go pale. lol. but i cant sit and wait for him to decide he misses me. if he realizes he's lost me and wants me back...well it may be too late. right?