cbomb

I am in the best mood!!!!


my depression and anxiety is lifting....i gotta do something proactiv about it tho to stop it in the future....but for now im ok


SO BJ called me.....it turns out he was in JAIL. yeah. uhoh....and it was THAT BITCH who started fighting with me who was changing his myspace and ignoring my msgs and shit.....so it wasnt him.....

he wasnt avoiding me...he does like me....but we both agree the pressure we put on ourselves was intense....

so we're gonna keep talking and seeing where this shit takes us...HOWEVER...he's a fukin troublemaker....dude...he's oon probation...he's been in and out of jail....like...im not sure i can handle his bagage......for real.....i like him but i dunno if i can take it all....

so having answers to everything has def helped......and as long as I know it wasnt me....im happy.....and that he still wants to see were it goes...

well basically im back in control thus im happy.. hahaaha.....
YAYYYY!!! now i can feel better.

still kinda having the anxiety shit but like i said it think the whole thing that went down opened up a bunch of sht from the past that i really need to work out....

OMG tho....am sooo happy to be on speaking terms with BJ and to know he wasnt fukin avoiding me or hating me or something redic...HAHAHA.....

GOD i was so down. but now im much better....LMAO

its sick tho how I needed to hear this shit form him to feel better, LOL