cbomb

Today the weather is so grey out my window....

last night I opened a bottle of wine and thougt to myself wot is it all worth? all my tears? and all my sadness?? I still havnt found the answer. Still havnt found the cure. But I guess whoever does would be a genius.

I'm getting thru today by focusing on tonight and that I'm going out with my friends. and That I have no choice but to smile. They wont let me not have fun. We have to take pictures and laugh and have fun,....

and then post them on myspace so BJ can see them hahahahaha just like he did to me.....the bastard....hahaha


god. still dont know when i'll get over this stupid shit.

had fun with Chris last night tho. it was nice to hang out with a nice boy who didnt expect anything from me.....it was really nice to just relax and be myself without the pressure of "whats gonna happen tomorrow"

ANd tonight, whoever shows up at the bar I hope it will be the same thing. No Pressure, Coz I just can't take it right now.....I am all out of my Xanax and I really could use some more.....lol....instead im medicating with red wine.....and it's only 4pm.....


lol...tonighgt its guiness draught......

and NO DRUNK DIALING BJ

i hope