catthepirate

And I forgave her.
Through everything. Forever I blamed her for my craziness. She screamed and cried at me. Her lack of control gave her control over me. Inside my head she created a hole. She filled it with memories, memories that created more holes and voids and crept inside the very nature of my being. Every tear of childhood came from the river flowing through that void. Raised voices can carry by so silently. And silent voices can rise so high. The world around her swirled in a torrent that could no way represent her own mind horrors. My mind winds to the same horrid song. The candle of my brain flickers and casts ugly shadows across everything. There she is in the shadows. Dark surges across her face. My life has spun out of control. She holds her ground in the shadows like an anchor. Shes been here before and knows the waters. I realize she is the only one who has ever felt this way. I realize how she felt. And I forgave her