im sick
but feeling better, hopefully this time it will last
did an assload of laundry & Dishes and some tidying up, that does make me feel better becuase i am not living in a pigpen again. And wtching Gossip makes me feel very good because Norman is incredible
speaking of incredible guys,
the coast guard
cannot wrap my mind around this one. going to go stay in astoria for the night. what i really need right now is some coast guard cuddles. daaaaaaamnit. hopefully this turns out to be a good trip. We're going to go to cannon beach and see haystack rock, and the goonie house, and do all the other wonderful tourist things to do along the coast.
Last time i visited him in astoria it was just me and i felt like i couldnt be me becuase it was just me and a bunch of his friends nad i was shy and nervous and didnt feel good and couldnt eat and shy and yeah blah....BLAH! then i didnt see him for like two months,
this was in september before school even started.
Now i am going with amanda (hopefully) and Elise. So with these girls i think i am more like me than ever and if im being dumb they can let me know and keep tabs on me. He might not come to stay here saturday, although i highly suggest he does. Damn him for not having a car!!!!!! DAMN HIM!
i think that he and his roomate need to put in money for a beater just strictly to visit me. haha. IM THAT SPECIAL DAMNIT! uuuuuuuugh
i really hope it works out well
becuase i miss him
and i do not want to tell him, becuase that sets me up as too vulnerable and gives him a big window to shoot me through.
how and when do we decide to open the blinders from that window and admit that we miss/want to see someone. DAMNIT!
the fear of it not being mutual is too too scary.
but feeling better, hopefully this time it will last
did an assload of laundry & Dishes and some tidying up, that does make me feel better becuase i am not living in a pigpen again. And wtching Gossip makes me feel very good because Norman is incredible
speaking of incredible guys,
the coast guard
cannot wrap my mind around this one. going to go stay in astoria for the night. what i really need right now is some coast guard cuddles. daaaaaaamnit. hopefully this turns out to be a good trip. We're going to go to cannon beach and see haystack rock, and the goonie house, and do all the other wonderful tourist things to do along the coast.
Last time i visited him in astoria it was just me and i felt like i couldnt be me becuase it was just me and a bunch of his friends nad i was shy and nervous and didnt feel good and couldnt eat and shy and yeah blah....BLAH! then i didnt see him for like two months,
this was in september before school even started.
Now i am going with amanda (hopefully) and Elise. So with these girls i think i am more like me than ever and if im being dumb they can let me know and keep tabs on me. He might not come to stay here saturday, although i highly suggest he does. Damn him for not having a car!!!!!! DAMN HIM!
i think that he and his roomate need to put in money for a beater just strictly to visit me. haha. IM THAT SPECIAL DAMNIT! uuuuuuuugh
i really hope it works out well
becuase i miss him
and i do not want to tell him, becuase that sets me up as too vulnerable and gives him a big window to shoot me through.
how and when do we decide to open the blinders from that window and admit that we miss/want to see someone. DAMNIT!
the fear of it not being mutual is too too scary.
jcup:
I've been meaning to do the Goonies/Astoria visit thing since I moved here. Have a good time. And dont be scurd, take a chance on something good. 