catthepirate

i hate hate hate hate hate this apartment
I hate it so much
i hate everything about it
i want to burn it down, badly

i am very angry today, and here is why
the dishes have been promised to be done weeks ago
and guess what is sitting in the kitchen sink!
the clothes were supposed to be washed when we were in brookings while I made cookies, but guess what did not get washed
the apartment was promised to be cleaned over and over and I dont think a single thing has been moved
i want to cry
and i am
i want matt back here but he is at work
i wanted to go to the gym today but finding a sports bra in this shithole is impossible and the only other sports bra I have was in the car caked in mud from being stepped on
i dont think anything can go right here
i think i am going to get stoned and order a pita
but thats what i always do when i am this angry
i dont want to clean the apartment for obvious reasons, but also because matt is like 'no no it will make me feel bad if you do I will do it' but then i'm like 'WELL FUCKING DO IT ALREADY' but then he gets mad at himself
ugh
it sucks
two passive aggressive people who hate themselves shouldn't date , but i hate to say that because we're perfect except for that
and without this apartment we are perfect
this apartment is causeing too many problems for its own good
i am going to go cry and sob and scream now