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Come here
Pretty please
Can you tell me where I am
You won't you say something
I need to get my bearings
I'm lost
And the shadows keep on changing

And I'm haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
I'm haunted
By the lives that wove the web
Inside my haunted head

Don't cry,
There's always a way
Here in November in this house of leaves
We'll pray
Please, I know it's hard to believe
To see a perfect forest
Through so many splintered trees
You and me
And these shadows keep on changing

And I'm haunted
By the lives that I have loved
And actions I have hated
I'm haunted
By the promises I've made
And others I have broken
I'm haunted
By the lives that wove the web
Inside my haunted head

Hallways... always

I'll always love you
I'll always need you
I'll always want you

And I will always miss you

Come here
No I won't say please
One more look at the ghost
Before I'm gonna make it leave
Come here
I've got the pieces here
Time to gather up the splinters
Build a casket for my tears

I'm haunted
(By the lives that I have loved)
I'm haunted
(By the promises I've made)
I'm haunted
By the hallways in this tiny room
The echos there of me and you
The voices that are carrying this tune

--Poe

Poe on repeat this morning as I was driving. I love when a song takes on multiple meanings. I love poetry to music.

Im thinking about my dad; Im thinking about my mentor: how they both influenced my life and shaped who I am today. My morning took a different direction than I initially thought it would. The time spent in my head is coming to an endwell at least taking a vacation. I need to take those thoughts and make them into something, finish creating what I started and see it through to the end. The words are going in a slightly different direction then when I first placed them onto the page. Which is a good thing. Every experience can be seen through many different eyes and from several angles. Growth occurs when this is realized and understood. Life sits on a foundation created by the past. Life isnt about regrets or what ifs it is about learning and growing and becoming. It is seeing the past in all the different ways in which it can be viewed and taking it into the future with a positive light guiding the way.

We are all creatures of our past and of our experience. Use it to move forward, not an excuse to stay in place.