cathedra

the joy of the new hair didn't last long. i really like the new hair, but don't like everything else that is attached. i feel like my face suddenly looks much fatter than before. that despite going to tanning on a bi weekly basis i look pale as fuck. i feel like the dark hair picks up on the shadows in my face and accentuates the dark circles under my eyes, making me look tired and old. i'm not in a happy place in my mind right now, i'm just bleh. thanks to all who showered me with compliments on the new do', I appreciate each and every one of you. i'm just in a low point hormonally, emotionally, and financially. i did my monthly budget yesterday and there will be no room for monkey business for the next couple of weeks. it's Victoria day here in Canada and so I've got a monday off, but what to do with such a day? i've already washed and dryed the hair to hope that it lightedned a bit..(which it did a tad) but the face behind the hair isn't any thinner. enough whining. as soon as i get some energy i'm off to the bloody gym. as far as i'm concerned I should be spending 75% of my day in there sweating, but unfortunately I have to go to work (at a job i have no more passion for) so that i can pay the bills. and another thing, where is the freaking sun already?



Update: Ok i'm getting used to the hair a bit more. I was bored this afternoon (since I have the day off) so here is another attempt at my new hair [warning - i'm a goof]: