cathedra

Alrighty this is a quick quick update as I have to jump in the shower. I had a shitty week and have cried at my desk almost every morning this week because of small 'freak-outs' and over thinking. So anyways I cheated yesterday and went out and bought my iPod Shuffle. It's so damn cool. I also went to tanning for 7 minutes and skipped the gym last night because my knees and the tendons in my feet HURT. However I think that may not have been helped by the fact that I danced around my flat for about 2 hours while listening to a live mix from Miss Kittin whom I was invited to go see on Saturday. I'm going with the gf of one of my coworkers, and yes she's a DJ and yes it's techno..but I won't be taking ANY drugs (i've promised myself) and as soon as I'm tired dancing i'll just....sit down! (woah what a concept) and then when I'm really tired just go home and go to bed! (woahh amazing). I really don't want to take any of the stuff from the past because I primarily I just don't want to, i'd be afraid of the coming down afterwards because it's been so long, i'd more than likely have a massive anxiety attack after, and to top it off it's Mother's Day on sunday and what kind of slap in the face would that be to my mom to have her 26 year old daughter come and detoxify after a rave on her couch on mother's day. AND..we're invited for supper at my grandmothers..soo. More than enough good reasons to "just say no" to tha power pills and just enjoy the music and the company. Still a bit tired, but I think I may have slept better not having gone to the gym right a few hours before bed. But I can still feel the gym all over my bod and I will go tonight, I've got my new toy to play with.

Well i'm doing better, thanks to everyone who encouraged me and sent me good thoughts. The biggest hurdle isn't over yet, I need to convince my boss to let me work remotelty when he comes back from Costa Rica next week. But i'll tell you alllll about that stressor another time. I gotta hop in the shower and go to work. xoxo Have a great day!