cathedra

Uh.. been crying all DAY at work. I feel like the world is picking on me though I know it isn't the case. It's hormones, and i'm over tired. I feel like a little baby who can't stop crying for no reason. I feel alone, unhappy, confused, betrayed, scared, ugly, tired, excited, threatened, and lost. I just do...

The plan is to finish work within the next 5 minutes and go to the mall and buy some clothes for the expo to cheer myself up. Like pants, tops, bras etc. Make myself happy and give my credit card a pot belly. I'll throw half my paycheck on it next thursday..s'all good. I just forced myself to have some chocolate like a soother and i've managed to stop crying but I'm still kinda tired/down. I think my boss just hired a female programmer that made the 2 other programmers drool, and I think that I'm deep down a little jealous. Maybe it will motivate me to loose some fucking weight. Well..this depressed porker is going clothes shopping then going to flop on her bed and sleep. Bye...if u got any extra luv, throw it my way...im bottomless today.