RPMguitar: oh hey i forgot football is on
RPMguitar: gotta go
teehee. for some reason I find that extraordinarily cute. Ok, so I find everything he does / says extraordinarily cute. Even if it's something that would really offend me if someone else said it. (That wouldn't really offend me except for, of course, when it seems like everything is more entertaining than me...)
I have yet to accomplish anything today and it's 9:21pm. And I was going to do school stuff all weekend. I fucking suck. Why can't I fucking motivate myself?
My head hurts and I feel like shit. I really just want to go to sleep rather than do homework. Maybe I'll just sleep for awhile and then I'll feel better?
What the hell am I going to do with myself? I'm actually considering dropping a class so I can go t oa concert Thursday--how fucked up is that? Of course, I'm also behind in the work for that class and the midterm project is Thursday and... well... I haven't even looked at it much less started on papers that were due in other classes last week. Fuck, it's not like I'm doing any worse in this class than it others and it might actually be easier to get my salvage my grade in there if I get my shit together than in my other classes.
But I want to see Ani Thursday... and I spent the money on the ticket and it's will call so what the hell do I do? Aurgh. I hate school. I even hate the classes I started out loving. Aurgh, it's like I just want to curl up and die.
But tomorrow I see Ryan. I probably shouldn't look forward to it as much as I do. It's not like he's a god. And I doubt he's a good as I think he is---I doubt he's the perfect person I've made him out to be. It's not like I don't see his faults, I just get a bizarre sort of pleasure out of them; like everything else about him, they are "cute." Why do I think he's so goddamn special?
Then again, Meesh said they might not be practicing tomorrow, or if they do, Brian probably won't be able to make it because he has several tests Tuesday. blargh. But if Dave's still going then yay! And fuck, I just want to see Ryan, I should show up anyway--he DID invite me! If the others don't come I could say I didn't know. Maybe he'd play for me. Maybe we could just hang out. Maybe... we'll see.
RPMguitar: gotta go
teehee. for some reason I find that extraordinarily cute. Ok, so I find everything he does / says extraordinarily cute. Even if it's something that would really offend me if someone else said it. (That wouldn't really offend me except for, of course, when it seems like everything is more entertaining than me...)
I have yet to accomplish anything today and it's 9:21pm. And I was going to do school stuff all weekend. I fucking suck. Why can't I fucking motivate myself?
My head hurts and I feel like shit. I really just want to go to sleep rather than do homework. Maybe I'll just sleep for awhile and then I'll feel better?
What the hell am I going to do with myself? I'm actually considering dropping a class so I can go t oa concert Thursday--how fucked up is that? Of course, I'm also behind in the work for that class and the midterm project is Thursday and... well... I haven't even looked at it much less started on papers that were due in other classes last week. Fuck, it's not like I'm doing any worse in this class than it others and it might actually be easier to get my salvage my grade in there if I get my shit together than in my other classes.
But I want to see Ani Thursday... and I spent the money on the ticket and it's will call so what the hell do I do? Aurgh. I hate school. I even hate the classes I started out loving. Aurgh, it's like I just want to curl up and die.
But tomorrow I see Ryan. I probably shouldn't look forward to it as much as I do. It's not like he's a god. And I doubt he's a good as I think he is---I doubt he's the perfect person I've made him out to be. It's not like I don't see his faults, I just get a bizarre sort of pleasure out of them; like everything else about him, they are "cute." Why do I think he's so goddamn special?
Then again, Meesh said they might not be practicing tomorrow, or if they do, Brian probably won't be able to make it because he has several tests Tuesday. blargh. But if Dave's still going then yay! And fuck, I just want to see Ryan, I should show up anyway--he DID invite me! If the others don't come I could say I didn't know. Maybe he'd play for me. Maybe we could just hang out. Maybe... we'll see.
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I'm changing my advice...new advice for Monday practice is: SNOG RYAN!!
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