casusluciferi

You know the more I start to get into things like animal rights, I notice how greedy and guilty I can get just from my own hunger. Maybe it's normal during the early stages of veganism, to still eat cheese when someone slips it in your food, or when you have nothing else to eat, so you skim off the cheese and meat off of the pizza, as I just did today. But even now it's starting to make me feel like an emofied pussy. Then I go and criticize groups for doing the same thing. I do try to make the best efforts I can but I get hungry to yo. and even slipping the meat into the trash, makes me feel like the animals whole purpose in life, even as fucked up as it was, just went down the drain by me doing such a thing. I don't ever want to go back to the state I was before I learned about ar or any of those things before. I make my efforts minimally, but I think today, I shall make more of a militant effort to reduce these types of things down to a 0. Anyone got any suggestions for things like cookbooks and such? Anyone that reads this it would be gladly appreciated if you can hook me up with a couple of suggestions. Damn I didn't realize how fucked up I'd feel for satisfying my own taste buds for a piece of pizza that I just scooped into the trash. It's not going to happen again though ~throws on heman muscles~