casusluciferi

Today I feel like a film critic.

Ok so last night I rented The Grudge and The Exorcist New Beginning

Both of them pretty much sucked(the grudge wasn't all that bad actually, I think I kind of enjoyed it), but I'd have to say hands down that the grudge was way better than the exorcist new beginning. The Grudge was all about people getting killed because some lady was pissed off at the world because her husband went apeshit once he found out she was stalking some college professor and her spirit was joined with the house as well as the sons to fuck everyone up that went into it because they were both murdered. The ending ruled however, everyone dies. You can't get much better than that.(no shitty unrealistic, heroic comeback to ruin the movie, only one who can get away with that is beowulf)

Which brings me to my next point, this is why I hated the new exorcist movie. This priest leaves his faith because he had to witness jews getting killed and had to help handpick them out during ww2 in germany. "Where was god", of course, thanks to the shitty modernization of film, he finds god again goes back to becoming a priesthood and it gives it the movie some touchy feel good ending of him walking away from the guy that sent him to the town in the first place. "That is father o murray" (or whatever his name was), in his uniform collar and all. BORING. Seriously, why does every goddamn movie have to be ruined with something like that. It brings no closure to the story at at all when someone like father o murray is just walking somewhere, and you have to ask yourself "I WONDER WHAT HAPPENED TO THAT GUY HMMMM". At least with the grudge you know that they all died, that's it. That is why I love sam raimi. and besides, he made army of darkness, nothing is more awesome than bruce campbell with his boomstick, yessssssssssssssss. Speaking of I heard they're going to make a new movie for the evil dead series that is going to have him in it, on a "shoestring budget" of course. that's gotta rule.

Anyways, I had a pretty shitty day at work today, nothing could have gone more wrong than it did. I ended up not closing the lid on one of our paintcans and it ended up costing all of us like 300 dollars, and I don't think any of us are getting bonus. Made me feel pretty bad, still got that whole "rookie" treatment going on. I don't mind seniority, but then again I also don't like being treated like shit. Yesterday at work, I drank one of those sobe "no fear" drink with all of that creatine in it. Never fucking again. I felt like I could punch a hole through the wall, stop time, and see abraham lincoln through the other side giving the emencipation proclamtion. That shit is the closest thing to pcp we're going to get that is legal. All of those energy drinks, I don't mind the redbull though, it hits the spot. Gives you just enough to get up and do something, but god I can only imagine what it would do if you were rocking it couch potato style......YEAH moving on

I might go to new york, I think in the next couple of months or maybe at the beginning of next year. They have a djaying school up there or maybe Florida for film school production (all still in the open), sure it would be good and more honorable to learn on your own, but just getting the chance to visit nyc for a couple of months and getting to go out and network with a new set of people seems like something to look forward too. FUCK LUBBOCK. I love seeing my friends (which I haven't cut off and told to fuck off), and my family, but there is just nothing to do, and the weather sucks here too. Extreme desert. . Too much to see just to say in one place, so many different people to meet, so many different places to see, bands that are touring, and just the whole beauty of travelling. It's awesome. Nothing like getting a break from "reality" by leaving your hometown for a while.
Lubbock is pretty surreal. I haven't really hung out with anyone really since i've been back home, and well honestly I haven't really felt like leaving my house even though I hate the work/come home sit on my ass and do nothing in between routine. It just feels like there is almost nothing to do besides get stupidly drunk and forget about things. So I set a short term goal : Save up more money and get the fuck out.

Lately I haven't really cared all that much about politics either, I've come to the conclusion that whatever political system or party that is in power, or whatever ideals that we follow, there is always going to be a flaw in it, and nothing is ever as good as it seems, live life and enjoy it, if your rights are infringed at that moment, and you know it's wrong fight it. Don't waste your whole life with just so much hate. It makes us as bad as anyone. The Kill em with kindness works (coming from a cynical and shallow asshole), I think if we all got positive and just started to network together instead of stay in our own little private prisons/sects then a lot could be accomplished. We aren't different, we're all the same with just looking at life through a different hole in the wall. Might as well just kick back and have a good one. Learn something about each other instead of destroy each other. If I personally sit down and have a conversation with someone I was prejudice with before, it goes away, no problem.

I haven't picked up a book lately and read anything special, oh fuckin well, I will one of these days. there are plenty of em out there.

My uncle is going out of town for a couple of days and I get to watch his house, all by myself, woooooo, that sounds like a lot of fun, I guess haha. I'll probably go rent garden state, and watch that while I'm over there. heard it's a pretty good movie.

well uh, I could write a whole lot more, I have a lot to say right now, kind of in that state of desperation but things always get better (they damn sure better, otherwise I'm going to stick my foot up someones ass whoever tells me that and I'm feeling like shit 3 months later). But yeah, I'm going to press save entry now. ~end transmission~