back from laughlin was fun. man was it hot there 117, i could have done without that.
spent the week on our boat and jetskis, got a lot of sun, which is great because i had none before we went, so i look tons better now
not so peekid. i don't have a "monitor tan" anymore.
got back last night, and had the wierdest phenomenon. i had a really bad fever, and then some other symptoms that have made me feel like i had the worst hangover all day. i pretty much just slept for about 5 more hours and now i'm up.
planning to play some league, and practice. i should eat something but nothing still really tickles my fancy. i guess i do have some soy milk and rice krispies, i could have that. i just want something plain.
josh and i have still been sort of picking back and forth at each other. there's no peace. i'm trying to find the place where we can co-exist without passive aggressive feelings of hurt from our relationship but it's a delicate balance. both of us have to rise up if this is going to work, and so far i don't see him making that effort. it's hard. he means a ton to me after all we've been thru. i just don't want to lose that as a casualty of war does that make sense? hmmmm
i will have to see if we can have a real talk soon. i dread real talks.
my honey is great, i got a call last week from a retailer in canada that wants to give me a phone interview, which would be the most perfect of perfect situations
i'm still nervous as we haven't met yet, but assuming all would go smashingly i could get a job and move there, omg life would be grand right? in the meantime i'll enjoy him from afar, and hope that something works out work wise as my job has been making me miserable the past year.
what are you guys upto? fill me in?
cereal time.
xoxo,
Cass
spent the week on our boat and jetskis, got a lot of sun, which is great because i had none before we went, so i look tons better now
not so peekid. i don't have a "monitor tan" anymore.
got back last night, and had the wierdest phenomenon. i had a really bad fever, and then some other symptoms that have made me feel like i had the worst hangover all day. i pretty much just slept for about 5 more hours and now i'm up.
planning to play some league, and practice. i should eat something but nothing still really tickles my fancy. i guess i do have some soy milk and rice krispies, i could have that. i just want something plain.
josh and i have still been sort of picking back and forth at each other. there's no peace. i'm trying to find the place where we can co-exist without passive aggressive feelings of hurt from our relationship but it's a delicate balance. both of us have to rise up if this is going to work, and so far i don't see him making that effort. it's hard. he means a ton to me after all we've been thru. i just don't want to lose that as a casualty of war does that make sense? hmmmm
i will have to see if we can have a real talk soon. i dread real talks.
my honey is great, i got a call last week from a retailer in canada that wants to give me a phone interview, which would be the most perfect of perfect situations
i'm still nervous as we haven't met yet, but assuming all would go smashingly i could get a job and move there, omg life would be grand right? in the meantime i'll enjoy him from afar, and hope that something works out work wise as my job has been making me miserable the past year.
what are you guys upto? fill me in?
cereal time.
xoxo,
Cass
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lovelygamer:
Hey! That sounds like a fabby vacation. 117 tho? Holy cow. I'm still here, just quiet on the internetz lately. Still dealing with a lot of drama in my life. It limits everything I do and stresses me emotionally. I game to escape. Sometimes I read and watch movies too. I did find out that team fortress is free to play now so I downloaded it and watched a match the other day to see what I could learn about it. I might play it some this summer. I'm on break till the first of September than it's all about college until December when I graduate. I have a lot left to fit in these last two months of summer. It's good to hear from you and see what you've been up to! 
cudnovati:
i know what you mean though all i have is first hand experience and well, i think i mentioned before that you cant have a healthy new relationship if you keep the past really close. just something to keep in mind : )