So the time has come for me to say what's been on my mind these past few weeks. I'm officially making up for the lack of updates these past few months by putting my balls all out on the table for you all and spilling all the beans.
This is a warning for you judgmental types out there, this blog will be very self-directed, so if you're the type to get upset about people who "Take themselves too seriously," Well then get the fuck out. You'd only be reading this anyway if you cared about me in any sort of way, so yeah, if you want to know more, here it is:
I've been in an existential limbo lately. I'm torn about the way I'm living my life. I am sitting comfortably in my cushioned chair tip-tapping away at a keyboard in my 4th floor apartment bedroom somewhere in the city of Montreal. Being aware of this, I've been frequently asking myself, is this where I want to be?
There's more to it than that... I'll elaborate.
I'm currently majoring in English Literature... a major for which I could care less for. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against the subject matter, I find some of it to be quite enlightening and pleasurable, but I don't see where it will take me in life, and so I don't see the point in pursuing it as a major. Which brings me to my next point.
What is up with the Academic system in North America? In my last blog, I posted a lecture (I suggest you check it out) that was up on TED.com about how our current education system cripples creativity in children. Think about it, do you remember having dancing/singing/art/music/etc. classes throughout your entire academic life? Not really. You've been studying the typical curriculum developed by the government to condition you into a perfect white-collar worker, one drone in the giant nest of a capitalist driven society. Your individual talents and skills we're never looked into, you weren't asked what you liked, you were just given textbooks on mathematics, literature (which they picked), history (which they picked), language and humanities (which they picked). And, like many other students in this generation of education, you came out of the system confused and not really sure what you were good at or what you wanted to do. But you better do something that makes you money or you'll fail when you're older. So what do most people do? They just go into a major, and "bite the bullet" called academics to get that degree and make their money.
Fuck man, I don't want to be one of those people who hates their job and lives the rest of their life, all trapped in the system. So I've decided to ditch my major. It's a sign when the things that you take as electives (I took Art, Pharmacology, Film and Sexuality classes) give you more pleasure than the things you study as a major.
There's things I need to do in life before I choose a career path. I'm looking into finally going to Japan for a bit. I fucking love their culture and everything they export, since I was a kid even, so I need to go there. I think my soul is calling me over there. lol
So those are long term goals I've actually set for myself. Setting goals is good cause it gives life meaning and therefore abolishes existential crisis.
I am cured. Ahhh
In other news, I've been posing nude for jokes on iChat for some lucky friends. I never was much of an exhibitionist, I'm mostly very shy and prudish. But lately, maybe its because the sun is out, I've been super narcissistic, and fuck I'm into it. So expect a flash here and there from me these next few weeks. I'll be taking up swimming and exercise this summer now that school is over so I'll be documenting the development of my physique. muahaha
Hmmm, I'm thinking, is that it? Is that all I wanted to say? I guess that's all for now. If I can't think of anything else, I guess that means my head is clear.
Cheers to that.
Keep it real.
Cass
PS: I'll try to update more frequently.
This is a warning for you judgmental types out there, this blog will be very self-directed, so if you're the type to get upset about people who "Take themselves too seriously," Well then get the fuck out. You'd only be reading this anyway if you cared about me in any sort of way, so yeah, if you want to know more, here it is:
I've been in an existential limbo lately. I'm torn about the way I'm living my life. I am sitting comfortably in my cushioned chair tip-tapping away at a keyboard in my 4th floor apartment bedroom somewhere in the city of Montreal. Being aware of this, I've been frequently asking myself, is this where I want to be?
There's more to it than that... I'll elaborate.
I'm currently majoring in English Literature... a major for which I could care less for. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against the subject matter, I find some of it to be quite enlightening and pleasurable, but I don't see where it will take me in life, and so I don't see the point in pursuing it as a major. Which brings me to my next point.
What is up with the Academic system in North America? In my last blog, I posted a lecture (I suggest you check it out) that was up on TED.com about how our current education system cripples creativity in children. Think about it, do you remember having dancing/singing/art/music/etc. classes throughout your entire academic life? Not really. You've been studying the typical curriculum developed by the government to condition you into a perfect white-collar worker, one drone in the giant nest of a capitalist driven society. Your individual talents and skills we're never looked into, you weren't asked what you liked, you were just given textbooks on mathematics, literature (which they picked), history (which they picked), language and humanities (which they picked). And, like many other students in this generation of education, you came out of the system confused and not really sure what you were good at or what you wanted to do. But you better do something that makes you money or you'll fail when you're older. So what do most people do? They just go into a major, and "bite the bullet" called academics to get that degree and make their money.
Fuck man, I don't want to be one of those people who hates their job and lives the rest of their life, all trapped in the system. So I've decided to ditch my major. It's a sign when the things that you take as electives (I took Art, Pharmacology, Film and Sexuality classes) give you more pleasure than the things you study as a major.
There's things I need to do in life before I choose a career path. I'm looking into finally going to Japan for a bit. I fucking love their culture and everything they export, since I was a kid even, so I need to go there. I think my soul is calling me over there. lol
So those are long term goals I've actually set for myself. Setting goals is good cause it gives life meaning and therefore abolishes existential crisis.
I am cured. AhhhIn other news, I've been posing nude for jokes on iChat for some lucky friends. I never was much of an exhibitionist, I'm mostly very shy and prudish. But lately, maybe its because the sun is out, I've been super narcissistic, and fuck I'm into it. So expect a flash here and there from me these next few weeks. I'll be taking up swimming and exercise this summer now that school is over so I'll be documenting the development of my physique. muahaha
Hmmm, I'm thinking, is that it? Is that all I wanted to say? I guess that's all for now. If I can't think of anything else, I guess that means my head is clear.
Cheers to that.
Keep it real.
Cass
PS: I'll try to update more frequently.