casper

Thank you for the birfday wishes, and all of your interesting stories. A lot of you were difficult beebies to be birthed!!!

Last night at work was amaaaazing. I bit Gypsy's nipple too hard, and kissed Lily onstage, while she lifted me in a full body hug. Jager shots galore. And then I let him take me to his house.

He said to me, at breakfast this morning, "I'm done, I'm finished looking....how can I ignore something like this, when it's staring me in the face?"

The other night, he seemed incredibly agitated, he kept heavily sighing and winding around in the bed, lifting his head to look at me in the dark and then setting it back down. I asked him what was wrong, knowing full well that nothing was.

He pressed his forehead to mine, and we both inhaled deeply. I could feel his heart pounding against my chest. He lifted his head in the dark once more, pressed his finger to my lips to indicate that no response was necessary, and then he said the words.

I knew this would happen. We both did.

For a relationship to work, two people have to want the same things. Unfortunately, those 'things' don't always present themselves until further down the road, and the pair will have to adapt or else unravel.....

My lovely Husbear and I have decided a few weeks ago to separate from our marriage, quite amicably. We are the fortunate ones. We realized that love can be strong and binding, but sometimes it can also be just too platonic for a well-rounded marriage.

We both cried a bit, but it's for the best. We are settling him into a new living space, but still maintaining the best bond we can.

"Do you think it's too soon to hang out?"

"Isaiah, for most couples I would say yes. But we aren't like most couples, I'm pretty sure."

Last night at the rack while I was onstage, a young man and woman introduced themselves to me as ex-spouses. I must have visibly reacted, because they explained that they had been married, divorced for several years and still consider each other best friends.

This makes me smile.

I know Isaiah will find a woman more suitable for he.

A psychic man told me, "We live our lives over and over again, whether we realize it or not. We live until we get it right."

I have plenty of time.

As far as non-serious blogging, I will be in the October Lucky Devil ad. Shot yesterday at the 20th and Morrison graveyard with Gypsy, shot by DangerNinja Photography.



Ill post the photo when I get it, it will be in the October Issue of Exotic Magazine....

And, right after, all sweaty and needing to shower.

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Hmmm....so pensive, Luxe and Marilyn both.




I spent time with my son at Laurelhurst this morning...we go there often, it was extra quiet today. I explained to him that his father won't be living with us anymore, but he will still see him all the time. He took it well.




My parents asked if I needed to come back to California. I do not, and I will not be leaving, at least not at this point in my life.

I love it here.



Love,

Casper