caseyblake

Good lord and thank heaven my school year is over with. Private school is not harder than public, believe me I have that experience far over anyone else you'll meet, but the people can be such needy bitches to the point I miss the wide open space of my home state. The only problem is there is too much damn open space out here with nothing to do. I came back mainly because I was kicked out of my dorm for the holidays and because I wanted to see old friends. But they don't seem to want to see me. Which I guess is ok. Its not really hurting me this time as much. Sure i have the pangs of hurt that come and go and I really wish they would put the same kind of care and love into me that I try to put into them but it's also their choice, not mine. I haven't been active on SG lately which is sad, I really need to jumpstart it again like I used to. I'm almost obligated these days, I was here in 2000 when it started and I was about 3 years underage but I found my ways to be a member. I remember the models that got me intrigued Flux, Tegan, Mary, Fractal, etc. They all caught my eye. And I think it really shaped my outlook on women. The girly girl sorority girls with their daddys credit card just doesn't do anything for me. I like the excitement of the alternative girl. Problem is I usually get run over and destroyed but hey, it comes with the territory and has made me stronger and more confident that maybe I'm not the one thats fucked up. So heres to a great christmas and hopefully a great new year that I can look forward to.