Bear with me, as this blog is a bit wine soaked...
I think I'm desperately over life.
I have so many things that I should be proud of and feel accomplished about, that I find it absolutely pathetic that I continue to dwell on things that I have no control over. God has a plan. I just don't know what it is yet. i find myself constantly trying to fill a void in my life. What is that about? What void am I filling? The need for someone? Seems I've had that my entire life. I have yet to have one person I can rely on besides myself.
There are a few things that I have been worried about, those include the amount I'm sleeping, the amount I'm drinking and the amount of time that I feel miserable.
Talk about lame.
I want to kick this....I wanna emerge from this time in my life and blossom into a beautiful someone who feels like she has all of her bases covered. I know that I do. I work, I play, I socialize, I parent, I manage. There is nothing that I feel like I lack with the exception of a signifigant other. So why the FUCK am I upset. It will come when it does...but that doesn't make it any easier.
I think I'm desperately over life.
I have so many things that I should be proud of and feel accomplished about, that I find it absolutely pathetic that I continue to dwell on things that I have no control over. God has a plan. I just don't know what it is yet. i find myself constantly trying to fill a void in my life. What is that about? What void am I filling? The need for someone? Seems I've had that my entire life. I have yet to have one person I can rely on besides myself.
There are a few things that I have been worried about, those include the amount I'm sleeping, the amount I'm drinking and the amount of time that I feel miserable.
Talk about lame.
I want to kick this....I wanna emerge from this time in my life and blossom into a beautiful someone who feels like she has all of her bases covered. I know that I do. I work, I play, I socialize, I parent, I manage. There is nothing that I feel like I lack with the exception of a signifigant other. So why the FUCK am I upset. It will come when it does...but that doesn't make it any easier.
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meaney:
P.S. Happy mother's day!
thanlife:
Saw your profile and posting on Dating Sucks and decided to check it out. Read your latest blog and have a few thoughts, if you you want honesty continue to read. If not, here's your chance to STOP! Nothing worth having is easy to come by, that's life. Yes, it's a bitch and that's why the saying exists and always will. There's nothing wrong with WANTing to have someone you can rely on, but as long as you can rely on yourself that's all you really NEED. You see there's a huge difference between WANTING someone and NEEDING someone. If you need something you're willing to sacrifice to get it. "I'm so hungry that I'll do anything for food, anything!" Needing is a desperate situation. "I want Panda Express." "Oh, there's not one around here?" "What else is there?" Wanting, not so desperate. This doesn't mean I think you should settle, that's just dumb. Remember finding love is not easy, which is what makes it so amazing if and when you actually find it. By the way, I'm the last person who should be giving advice so ignore all of this. Thank you.