carnival_kid

Just got the phone call! Didnt get the job, bastards. As much as I had set myself up for this in my mind, still at the back yeah Ill get it, I think also as stupid as it is I cant help but take it on a personal level as much as I can rationalise that thats a idiotic concept. Apparently they liked me very much it was a difficult decision but they went with someone with more experience. And thats the thing I will remember cos I have experience and lots of it just not on the scale that they run, its just all with fairly budget equipment. That didnt come across in the interview and I think they thought I had little if any, so Im kicking myself for not answering 1 or 2 questions different.

But thats life I will move on its actually worked out well cos after getting in last night I hardly slept cos of my bastard hay fever and felt shit this morning. This being bad cos I have and exam tomorrow and Wednesday and need 2 get my head down but I wasnt up for it after I woke up. But after the phone call that rush of adrenaline and anger has sorted me out and I feel pretty on it now, so small mercys.

Edit: I'm now singing along to the Stooges loudly in a fuck you I'll make it see if I dont kinda way. I wanted more angry music and I tunes has just flicked to the Isley Brothers which isnt really doing it for me.