carminefox

I've never been much of a blogger, but I'm going to start being better about that.

First thing's first. I moved to Utah. Home of every Mormon ever, the most beautiful mountains, and every Mormon ever. Oh, and the most attractive women. <-- also Mormon. It was just time to move, you know? I felt like I knew every person in Tulsa, and even new...
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Life has taken a turn for the better lately. Got a job at Saks in the Contemporary department, a photography gig tonight for Fashion's Night Out, and I'm playing a show with my new band on Saturday!

Honestly, a lot of my recent "success" is due to my diving into meditation. My best friend Sarah and I have been meditating together once or twice a...
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Unemployment does not suit me. I drink too much, sleep too little, have too much totally meaningless sex, and spend entirely too much time without clothes on overall. My main friend group does too much skinnydipping and stripping at parties.

Wait. What the fuck am I saying? Unemployment is fucking rad as hell. Today, I woke up at eleven, made waffles, ate them with peanut...
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Let's see if I can do this before my laptop dies.

So some serious happenings have been.. happening. I got fired and very nearly sued by my former employers for keeping tabs on how much the owner of the company was illegally skimming off the top, and where that money was coming from. There are ways to take money from your company that are completely...
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i picked up my stuff from my ex-girlfriend's apartment today. it was far weirder than it should've been. she wore seersucker shorts and a nylon jacket over one of the tshirts i was there to pick up, to put on a mini-show about how things were so comfortable and casual that she could laugh about it as i went through her apartment, collecting the odds...
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Some thoughts on love: that most difficult realization that someone other than one's self is real.

Let our scars fall in love.
Galway Kinnell

Were all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if youve been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect theres no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some...
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saw this, laughed, and knew exactly where to post it. enjoy. Men-Ups

growing up has its pros and cons. i like making the money i'm making, and let's face it: i love wearing a tie every day. but little by little, i find myself worrying about things i was so sure i wouldn't have to worry about until i was thirty. maturity comes in the night, pokes me in the head, and whispers, "hey. you. yeah. you're...
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this seems as good a place as any.


too easy to be anything true, living in rooms posterd and paintingd to cover dead beiges and eggshells and creams, sleeping on eastern-style floor mats to show western-style enlightenment packaged to be smiled at in conversations heavy with practice and the most sincere efforts to appear authentic, in attempts to feel what should be felt, but theres...
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